::world of my own::

i love this quote (:

2010-11-23T13:32:00.000+08:00

when faced with 2 choices, simply toss a coin...
it works not because it settles the question for you..
but because in that brief moment when the coin is in the air..
u suddenly know what u r hoping for..

3 wishes..

2009-12-22T23:59:00.003+08:00

三个愿望 - 梁文音

你开始会计划未来了
满脸认真拉我看新领的存折
像火山的脾气少很多
很忙也会记得抽空联络

你做的事我都看见了
所以抱你的时候眼里红红的
就算你有时候会犯错
怎么舍得再不开心什么

你答应送我三个愿望
第一个希望你能健康开朗
第二个希望我能更懂体谅
第三个希望我们永远有话讲

其实我不用三个愿望
每一天都有感动值得收藏
每一夜天使陪我祈祷仰望
每滴泪都被你的魔法变阳光

因为很爱所以会想通
不再去坚持己见让彼此难过
当感情很稳定很浓厚
退让也会有种甜蜜感受

你答应送我三个愿望
第一个希望你能健康开朗
第二个希望我能更懂体谅
第三个希望我们永远有话讲

其实我不用三个愿望
每一天都有感动值得收藏
每一夜天使陪我祈祷仰望
每滴泪都被你的魔法变阳光

感谢我们的爱情没有翅膀
一步步走在往幸福的路上
再用足够时间好好欣赏
让开心春夏秋冬细致的风光

其实我不用三个愿望
每一天都有感动值得收藏
每一夜天使陪我祈祷仰望
每滴泪都被你的魔法变阳光

love quotes..

2009-11-28T14:45:00.003+08:00

In real love you want the other person's good. In romantic love you want the other person.

Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.

Love is friendship set on fire: In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable.

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.

Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one.

Love is something eternal; the aspect may change, but not the essense.

True love begins when nothing is looked for in return.

Love is the enchanted dawn of every heart.

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.

Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.

Love is giving someone the power to break your heart, but trusting him not to.

if i has to choose between loving you and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU.

When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, that's her...

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

This day I will marry my friend, the one I laugh with, live for, dream with, love

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.

And if it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true. In this life, I was loved by you.

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.

Two lives, two hearts joined together in friendship united forever in love

Love is blind -- marriage is the eye-opener.

The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in.

All love is sweet, given or returned.

I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed your mind.

depressed..

2009-11-08T12:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder wat i m worth
whtr anyone will miss me if I'm gone
whtr it would be better if things are like before
i also wonder
whtr everlasting love really exists
whtr it's possible to feel like u are dating ur whole life
and right now this moment
i wonder

whtr he needs me in his life

turning 28 on the 28th..

2009-10-30T17:06:00.010+08:00

as with every year
would like to thank all my beloved frens
who wished me happy birthday
=D

HP/email wishes from..
小姑
julian
jingyi
xiaofei
sharon low
silvia
jiayu
arlene
ronny
michelle
serene ng
zhenjin
edalene
gerald
kelvin
sumathi
jessie
catherine hung

friendster wishes from..
junjie

facebook wishes from..
kendi
edalene
yong yen
jason
xiling
emily toh
roslina
jonas
nicole poon
yean sam
jee cheng
karen chua
alicia
erwin soong
yixin
andra
jiayan
walter
xinyue
jeffrey
samantha chong
3rd aunt
shi min
juan

fotos of my pressies here

Observational Comedy

2009-10-12T13:42:00.002+08:00

got this from a forwarded email..

1. More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can't wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that's not only better, but also more directly involves me.

2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

3. Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

4. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

5. The letters T and G are very close to each other on a keyboard.
This recently became all too apparent to me and consequently I will never be ending a work email with the phrase "Regards" again.

6. Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the "people you may know" feature on facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?

7. Do you remember when you were a kid; playing Nintendo and it wouldn't work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in the world did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or faq's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft.

8. There is a great need for a sarcasm font.

9. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what was going on when I first saw it.

10. I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I'll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone's laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I'm still the only one who really, really gets it.

11. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

12. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

13. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text

14. Lol has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say"

15. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

16. Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart", all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".

17. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?

18. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

19. Everytime I have to spell a word over the phone using 'as in' examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot.
Today I had to spell my boss's last name to an attorney and said "Yes that's G as in...(10 second lapse)..ummm...Goonies"

20. What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

21. While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it...thanks Mario Kart.

22. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

23. I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.

24. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

25. Bad decisions make good stories.

26. Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB-gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if I do!

27. Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

28. Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't be a problem....

29. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

30. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

31. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

32. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.

33. I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV. There's so much pressure. 'I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren't watching this.It's only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?'

34. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

35. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

36. I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my itunes.

37. Why is a school zone 40kph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles...

38. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

39. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

40. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

41. The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words, someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to think about it, and then estimated that there must be at least four people eating to require such a large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There's nothing like being made to feel like a fat bastard before dinner.

42. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey
- but I'd bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time...

43. I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.

44. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

The Dash

2009-09-24T16:24:00.002+08:00

By Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on his tombstone
from the beginning… to the end.

He noted that first came the date of his birth
and spoke of the following date with tears,
but he said that what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that he spent alive on earth
and now only those who loved him
know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own,
the cars…the house… the cash.
What matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard;
are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real
and always try to understand
the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger
and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives
like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile…
remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while.

So when your eulogy is being read
with your life's actions to rehash,
would you be proud of the things they say
about how you spent your dash?

Life and How to Survive It..

2009-05-20T09:18:00.003+08:00

long but good read.. enjoy.. (:

Address at NTU Convocation 2008 by Adrian Tan (author of Teenage Textbook)

I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan “Arbeit macht frei” was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

You’re going to have a busy life. Thank goodness there’s no life expectancy.

Get to know yourself better..

2009-03-04T22:36:00.005+08:00

bored

i remember doing this quiz before
but i dun rem the results being this accurate
haha
try it (:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I'm yours (:

2009-02-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, and now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out, I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people, dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate, our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

D-d-do do you, but do you, d-d-do
But do you want to come on
Scooch on over closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do, our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Come on and open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours

So please don't, there's no need
There's no need to complicate
'Cause our time is short
This is, this is, this is our fate
I'm yours

Oh, I'm yours
Oh, I'm yours
Oh, whoa, baby you believe I'm yours
You best believe, best believe I'm yours

Gin the dancing dog..

2009-02-01T14:06:00.000+08:00

enjoy (:

http://www.familytiez.com/video/gin.htm

A Dog's Purpose?

2009-01-07T09:22:00.002+08:00

from the perspective of a 6-year-old

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten-year-old Irish Wolfhound named Belker. The dog's owners, Ron, his wife Lisa, and their little boy Shane, were all very attached to Belker, and they were hoping for a miracle.

I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer. I told the family we couldn't do anything for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home. As we made arrangements, Ron and Lisa told me they thought it would be good for six-year-old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker 's family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away. The little boy seemed to accept Belker's transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker's death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives. Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, ''I know why.''

Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I'd never heard a more comforting explanation. It has changed the way I try and live.

He said,''People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life -- like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?'' The six-year-old continued,''Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don't have to stay as long.''

Live simply.
Love generously.
Care deeply.
Speak kindly.

Remember, if a dog was the teacher you would learn things like:
When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.
Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joyride.
Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure Ecstasy.
Take naps.
Stretch before rising.
Run, romp, and play daily.
Thrive on attention and let people touch you.
Avoid biting when a simple growl will do.
On warm days, stop to lie on your back on the grass.
On hot days, drink lots of water and lie under a shady tree.
When you're happy, dance around and wag your entire body.
Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.
Be loyal.
Never pretend to be something you're not.
If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.
When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by, and nuzzle them gently.

ENJOY EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY!

"Animals come into our lives as gifts from God, for companionship, to teach us, and to heal us. They deserve our very best efforts incaring for them" -Dr. Ihor Basko, DVM

quote of the day..

2008-10-31T17:44:00.001+08:00

..to end of my day at the office

i look at my keyboard and see that U and I are always together...

:D

happiest bdae ever..

2008-10-30T21:16:00.018+08:00

this yr's bdae was really special
coz the celebrations seemed to spread over a few days
hahaha

first
during our retreat on 25.10.08 at 11pm
my colleagues celebrated for oct babies
after the retreat's themed dinner
despite everyone's eyes closing
and willing themselves not to fall asleep
lydia and serene took the trouble
to travel all the way into sentosa
juz to deliver the cake
so sweet rite (:
here are the 4 oct babies
bee peng, sin han, me and jessica

then
the very next day after my retreat
i had a great bunch of frens
celebrating for me at Timbre @ Substation
many thanks to johnson, zhenjin, sumathi and yanping
and of coz my boy boy dean
and smses from anthony and rick
luv u guys loads
muacks

on deepavali
to recover from the retreat
i had a super good rest
which actually translates to mean
i slept more than half the day away la
hahaha
had a family dinner at vivo asian kitchen
my folks seem pretty pleased with the food
and dearest daddy, as usual, is in charge of the cake
and ta-daa! our happy family pic (:
my silly dog was, as usual, distracted
and not looking at the camera

as i was drifting off to sleep dat nite
i was a wee bit disappointed
dat no one wished me happy birthday at the stroke of midnite
dean was fast asleep waaayy before midnite lor
hmmph
oh well
i guess most, if not all, of my frens have lived pass dat stage in life
where we stay up late enuff to say happy birthday at midnite
hahaha
now everyone has to sleep early
to get up in time for work the next day
hmmm
i dun rem my frens and i ever being so enthu abt school
we'll juz stay up super late
and then go to school half asleep
hah

the first birthday wish was from serene at 0026hrs
she's a dear fren from work (:
thereafter, smses started coming in from 7am
i like to tink of it as pple remembering my bdae the first thing they woke up
so sweet rite
hehehe

many thanks to all my beloved frens & cousins..
ronny
violet
kendi
anna
sharon
bee peng
shu juan aka alicia
silvia
rachel
jingyi
steve (all the way from UK!)
xinyue aka moon (all the way from Aussie!)
winston
stanley
lydia
jessie
xiang ru
yixin aka isabel (all the way from Aussie!)
kelvin (his sms made it just b4 my bdae ended)

friendster & facebook wishes from..
jess
renshi
xiaofei
kendi

had alone time with my dean
for the whole day on my bdae
we went shopping at plaza singapura
caught the movie “max payne”
proceeded to shop at tiong bahru plaza
and finally had dinner at brotzeit at vivocity

there he gave me the best bdae present
by proposing to me (read: across the table)
with a bouquet of pink roses
and a diamond ring

after dinner
we went on a romantic cable car ride
to sentosa, mt faber and then back to harbourfront
okay, it wasn’t dat romantic lah
coz i was quite scared at certain parts of the journey
and to balance the cable car
we had to sit opposite each other
plus the cable car was not lighted inside
so we had to talk in the dark
and all i could see was his dark silhouette
so much for romance eh
it's more like those blind date thingy
hahaha

the day ended on a perfect note
with gary’s 两只恋人 playing on the radio
just as we reached home
(:

i've concluded......

2008-10-11T15:02:00.002+08:00

......dat girls who wear a bikini to a public pool
are girls who dunno how to swim
i noe this might seem like a sweeping statement
but, i've seen too many...

u see ah
girls who wear bikinis to public pools
would mean that they do not own a swimsuit
becoz we all noe dat public pools are filled with ogling ah peks
so, any sane girl in the right frame of mind
would not wear a bikini for ah peks to ogle at
but yet there are still girls who do dat
which would mean they can't swim
coz they usually hang ard and laugh
or act frail
or act like they are trying hard to learn swimming
all these while letting ah peks ogle at them
something which is beyond my comprehension

personally i find it quite uncomfy to swim in a bikini
so girls who go to a pool to swim (instead of juz soaking water)
will usually wear a swim suit =p
and to date
i have not seen a single girl wearing bikini and doing laps

this morning
i saw this girl (yes, wearing a bikini) in the pool
i was into my 3rd lap when i saw her
as i approached the wall
she was adjusting her goggles
i swam away and back again (4th lap)
and she was still fiddling with her goggles
the irritating part is dat she is facing the wall
which means she's oblivious to swimmers
who are coming back to touch the wall
and she is hopping on her feet
okay, actually i dunno wat she's doing
but it looked like she's jumping on the spot
on one leg and then on the other
not very big jumps but she's like moving ard horizontally
and irritating the hell out of me coz i have to cut my lap short
as i do not know how to get past her
to touch the wall
as i came back again on my 5th lap
she was still hopping
and this time
she was holding on to her bikini straps
the ones dat tie around the neck
she untied them and were holding the ends
and hopping around
wat the hell la

okay i sound like i'm against girls wearing bikinis
but dun get me wrong
i'm not okays
i'm juz against girls wearing bikinis to public pools
and then hop around blocking my way
-_-

oh btw, i swam 10 laps
which is 1km
in 45 mins
which translates to a not-very-fast speed
but i'm sooo tired now la
stamina worsen liao
damn

going to nap
haha
then go for band prac tonight

wheeee~

A modern-day Flickr fairy tale..

2008-10-09T10:28:00.001+08:00

so fairy-tale ish.. =)

a romantic article taken from asiaone

another quote..

2008-10-04T15:28:00.001+08:00

if you can't get someone out of your head,
maybe they are supposed to be there..

=)

quote of the day =)

2008-09-29T11:08:00.001+08:00

anyone can make you smile..
many people can make you cry..
but it takes someone really special..
to make you smile with tears in your eyes..

Are computers running your life?

2008-09-22T09:39:00.004+08:00

a really long but true read.

Extracted from here

Don't blame the gadgets

In an age of mobile communications, digital social networks and virtual worlds, we are able to connect with friends and strangers alike without breaking a sweat. Technology has bridged physical distances between people and given us a virtual meeting place.

But online interactions are often viewed with a mix of derision and suspicion, and are sometimes branded frivolous and superficial. Detractors would argue that technology dulls the warmth of human contact by encouraging people to hide behind bits and bytes.

Veiled by Photoshopped images of ourselves and masked by avatars, we forge hundreds of shallow liaisons across the digital universe and send virtual beers and hugs to one another, instead of meeting up, say, at a real pub in your neighbourhood. It seems that the more digitally-connected we are, the more disconnected we ironically become, the pro-(real)-life camp contends.

Even digital fiends, such as yours truly, have to concede that there is a grain of truth to that argument.

For example, of the 500 friends in your Facebook network, how many would you want to spend a Saturday afternoon with?

Are the fans who follow your "plurk" and "twitter" mini-blogs genuinely interested in your mundane life? Or are they passively peering into your life out of a voyeuristic sense of kaypoh-ness?

e-greeting vs no greeting

To me, the capability to connect with and unite a diverse bunch of people living in all corners of the world is precious. And there is no doubt that technology has strengthened - markedly - that ability to connect.

Sure, greeting someone in person is more intimate than sending a smiley via email, or instant messaging. But an electronic greeting beats no greeting at all.

What makes you think that you will develop a relationship more meaningfully in person without the cold intrusion of technological aids? Wouldn't it be more likely that a relationship won't be formed at all?

Is it such a bad thing to have Facebook help you keep in touch with someone you do care about, but haven't had the time to physically meet?

Online networking platforms like LinkedIn, Facebook and Friendster link us up with people whom you otherwise would have missed. What accounts for "superficial" connections versus "genuine" ones is also muddy.

The contacts on your online networks can be useful for your professional needs, even though they might not be people you want to spend after-office hours with.

Plus, relationships can grow online - the plethora of Internet dating sites available is testament to that.

It's not just for nerds

Contrary to what some say about technology being a treat for socially-maladjusted voyeurs, I think it has spun some fabulous tools for keeping up with others in a non-intrusive, subtle way.

An email or mobile text message doesn't invade anyone's space as much as a physical meet-up sometimes does. Status updates on your social networking site only inform your friends (simultaneously) about the things you are willing to share, nothing more.

It is the technology user's choice to post information he or she is comfortable revealing, and it is the same user's choice to consume information from others.

The sheer power of technology to connect is one that cannot be undermined.

How you choose to connect is your prerogative, as is the depth of your interpersonal interactions.

Technology is morally and emotionally neutral. Don't blame your tools for your misuse of them. You can harness technology to maximise interactions with one another, or you can let it be a limitation.

Don't use technology as an excuse for your unfulfilled and unfulfilling relationships.

Disconnect yourself, I say

What provides more "information" - an inbox filled to the brim with emails from three accounts, up-to-date news feeds collated from a dozen sites, memberships to multiple social networking sites... or a weekend at the beach?

With the information blitzkrieg that we sit through every day, one questions whether we really are better informed than previous generations.

It's an issue that's close to my heart. With a job that revolves around writing about technology, I do surf several websites, digest plenty of Web feeds and consume whatever the Internet throws at me - more so than any other sane man.

The daily digital onslaught sometimes gets the better of me and I grow jaded, leaving feeds unread and chucking irrelevant email mercilessly into the virtual trash bin.

But on recent personal trips, where I chose to be in a situation to disconnect - no emails, no Internet and few text messages and calls in between - I made small, yet vital, discoveries about myself and the world around us, about information that might not flow in the sinews of fibre optic cables, but through human contact.

As I sat nestled in a Balinese villa watching a glorious sunset, my life seemed to be put on pause. It just isn't the same if you juxtapose a similar scene in all its high-definition glory on a laptop, even with the screen's warm, artificial glare.

I'd been ping-ponging messages on Facebook among friends to plan for the trip, but despite all the online banter, I found that we only forged real bonds frolicking in the sun, shooting the breeze, hearing foreign tongues and filling our tum-tums with exotic fare.

Disconnect, I say.

It's only when we hit the pause button on our digital selves that we recalibrate. Put our digital lives on hold and cocoon ourselves for a bit, away from the noise; away from the chaos; away from the Internet.

That digital pause isn't wasted time. You're still thinking, and that break is just what the doctor ordered to gather your thoughts and keep you on course.

Being hyper-connected via every conceivable technological device is overrated. Despite the light-speed rates of our brain synapses, I don't think we've evolved fast enough to keep up with the daily tsunami of data.

Of course, we should not disregard the conveniences the Internet brings in terms of telecommuting and communication. But to get any real value out of the information we've inherited from the Web, we need to disconnect ourselves and plunge into the real world.

Social experiences online are a good bearing of this. Despite instant messaging and the few hundred contacts on Facebook, I find that it seems a bit "plastic".

It's a far cry from an honest handshake and well-meaning eye contact, made more disposable with the easy sputter of words and fancy emoticons.

Even tech entrepreneurs are arranging meetups in "meatspace" (that's the real world for you and me) as an aside to their rabid online hookups.

MySpace isn't where I want to be, I'm afraid. Rather, it's my space - the real world - that matters.

Trader vs Operations

2008-08-29T16:49:00.001+08:00

this is so true lor.. lolz

===================================

A man in a hot air balloon realized he was lost.

He lowered his altitude and spotted a man in a boat in a lake below.

He shouted to him, "Excuse me, can you help me? I promised a friend I would meet him an hour ago, but I don't know where I am."

The man consulted his portable GPS and replied, "You're in a hot air balloon, approximately 30 feet above a ground elevation of 2346 feet above sea level. You are at 31 degrees, 14.97 minutes north latitude and 100 degrees, 49.09 minutes west longitude.

He rolled his eyes and said, "You must be in Operations."

"I am," replied the man. "How did you know?"

"Well," answered the balloonist, "everything you told me is technically correct, but I have no idea what to do with your information, and I'm still lost. Frankly, you've not been much help to me."

The man smiled and responded, "You must be a trader."

"I am," replied the balloonist. "How did you know?"

"Well," said the man, "you don't know where you are or where you're going. You made a promise that you have no idea how to keep, and you expect me to solve your problem. You're in exactly the same position you were in before we met, but somehow, now it's my fault."

好久不见...

2008-08-14T18:57:00.009+08:00

my last post was in May
sounds like such a faraway date in the past
hahaha
okay, let's see.. wat did i do..
went to liying's church wedding on 14.06.08

attended Nigel (Dean's elder bro) and Ivy's wedding the very next day

went diving at Redang
from 19.06.08 to 22.06.08

sprained my ankle on 29 June ):
i'm still nursing it now lor
tinking of going to an orthopedic specialist
to see what can be done

okayy, dat's about it
hmm..
my July was so boring?!
lolz

looking forward to Singapore Fireworks Celebrations 2008
which will be held at the Marina Bay Floating Gallery
on 22 & 23 August 2008

(:

Myanmar Cyclone Nargis Appeal

2008-05-14T09:00:00.002+08:00

pls help
can donate $$ via many means
cheque, internet banking, ATMs and even AXS machines
more details at redcross webbie
http://www.redcross.org.sg/

Office pal-itics.. so true.. =)

2008-05-13T17:13:00.002+08:00

taken the below article from here
i'm sure many of us can relate to it
enjoy =)

Last Monday, one of my best friends in the office resigned.

His decision didn't really surprise me. After almost 10 years with the newspaper, he was raring to try something new.

I joined the company only slightly after he did, and through the years, a firm friendship was built angsting over work assignments, gossiping about colleagues and over-ordering in Japanese restaurants islandwide.

Our relationship has evolved to the point where he nags me in public about eating my vegetables.

And I nag him right back about his inexplicable attraction to sexually-confused women, much to the amusement of public relations people who had expected to buy us a quiet, civilised lunch.

Yet his impending departure didn't really hit me until a few days later.

We were both struggling to put out our stories that night - mine was about the national broadband network and his was about corporate dental benefits.

Stressed and bored at the same time, we were engaging in our favourite activity: recreational bitching on Lotus Notes Messenger.

The great thing about talking about someone or something on instant messenging systems is that it's a stealthy activity. There is the occasional hint of a smile and sporadic furious typing, but no one really knows what you're up to.

As usual, we were childishly locked in a battle over who could say the most outrageous thing. And things quickly reached a crescendo with a horribly crude National Service-era joke.

There was a pause on the message screen as we both chuckled silently to ourselves.

Then out of nowhere, a huge wave of sadness washed over me and I was suddenly in tears.

'You know, I am really gonna miss you,' I typed. 'No one else here is even remotely so full of nonsense :('

Another pause onscreen, as I awaited his reply.

':)'

For me, office friends are such a vital part of working life that I don't think I could come to work every morning if I didn't have them.

So I really marvel at the people who judiciously separate their personal friendships from office relationships.

They come to the office, keep to themselves and concentrate 100 per cent on their jobs. And at the end of the day, they go back to after-work lives that no one has the foggiest idea about.

It's the working life experience boiled down to its cleanest, purest form - no frenzied shopping on the clock during lunch and no poking your nose into other people's affairs.

But much like that low-fat vegetarian diet that is theoretically good for you, I can't see much joy or laughter in such an existence. I would probably go mad.

The average executive comes in to work at 8am and doesn't leave till 7pm or 8pm, realistically. That means as many as 12 hours are spent in the office - or 75 per cent of his waking hours in a day, five days a week.

In those 12 hours, all sorts of stresses are loaded onto an individual. Meetings are tension-filled and embarrassment beckons if presentations go awry. With pals in the office, all this becomes that much more bearable.

Dislike that crazy boss? Take out your phone and silently complain about him via SMS to your friend sitting across the meeting table.

Chances are, things won't look quite so bad after that.

In fact, when it comes to the crunch, friends may not always be a good reason to stay in a job. But it's a big reason why, even when things go haywire and bad stuff is raining down like never before, people decide not to leave.

Research based on 5 million interviews by The Gallup Organization shows that people who have a best friend at work are seven times more likely to be engaged with that work.

The same research also shows that people with three close friends at work are 46 per cent more likely to be extremely satisfied with their jobs and 88 per cent more likely to be satisfied with their lives.

Still, bosses and workers see this issue differently. Another recent survey by California-based staffing firm Accountemps shows that although 22 per cent of employees feel that having friends in the office increases productivity, only 2 per cent of managers agree.

As both a manager and an employee, I feel office friendships are great and should be cultivated and cherished.

There are only two drawbacks.

The first has to do with the fact that friendships in the office are quite different from those forged with classmates in school, where everyone is more or less an equal.

Two friends may start out at the same level, but one could get promoted quicker and even become the other's boss.

The friendship could turn sour and a failed relationship in the office is arguably much harder to manage than one outside work, since people are expected to continue to work with each other every day. Friendships could also start up between bosses and subordinates, opening the door to jealousy and charges of favouritism.

The second thing about office friendships is that they burn so brightly while they last and die off so quickly when colleagues part ways.

You feel constantly guilty when you don't keep in touch as often as you promised you would on that last day. And even when you finally meet up with your friend, you worry about what to say. It's natural, I suppose, because so much of the friendship was based on what was going on in and around the office.

But when colleagues leave, their circumstances change and you no longer have a daily pulse on what's going on in their lives.

That eventuality is the saddest thing, I think, about a friend quitting the office to move on.

You can try as hard as you like, but you know that things will never be the same again.

This article was first published in The Straits Times on May 11, 2008

forgiveness..

2008-04-28T08:37:00.002+08:00

read this in today's TODAY "Focus on the Family" column
tink i've read the same article in those forwarded emails before
thot it's quite meaningful
jot the quote down before i forget

"Forgiveness is giving up my right to hurt you for hurting me. I think that's one of the most profound definitions of forgiveness I've ever heard. It's only when we've truly given up the right to retaliate, that we've truly forgiven."

~Dr. Archibald Hart

How do you know that he is THE ONE?

2008-04-21T14:07:00.001+08:00

got this off the discussion forum of my company intranet
many frens have asked me the above question before
and to be honest
i cant really give an answer to it
i tink the answer can be found in the below article
enjoy. =)

===================================================

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, 'How do I know if I married the right person?'

I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, 'It depends. Is that your husband?' In all seriousness, she answered 'How do you know?'

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called 'falling' in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept of my feet.' Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, 'Did I marry the right person?' And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.

You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression 'the labor of love.' Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can 'make' love.

Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'... NOT just a feeling.

Remember this always:

'God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.'

updates!

2008-04-21T13:52:00.002+08:00

after skipping gym for like more than 2 weeks (oops)
and going for a biz-cum-leisure trip to taiwan
and after settling dean's ACL reconstruction op
i'm back to my gymming routine =)
and with edalene's enthusiasm in swimming
i'm gonna try to keep up all my routines again
but the yoga part is a tad difficult la
coz now dat i've got a bed-ridden neighbour
who is dying from boredom at home
i'll usually go straight home after work
gimme a small break la
hehe

oh, i've shifted the dates
of my weight measurements and gym routine posts
i've decided it's kinda boring to see them all the time
i've added a weight thingy at the side
as a friendly reminder for myself
hahaha

back to work =p

MY WEIGHT MEASUREMENTS =P

2008-04-21T13:43:00.000+08:00

21/04/08 - 55.5 kg
31/03/08 - 57.5 kg
25/02/08 - 56.5 kg
18/02/08 - 57.0 kg
12/02/08 - 57.1 kg (oops.. all the CNY goodies' fault)
04/02/08 - got measure but forget liao (CNY week => exercise 2 days nia)
31/01/08 - 56.8 kg
28/01/08 - 57.2 kg
21/01/08 - 58.4 kg
14/01/08 - 58.2 kg
07/01/08 - 58.0 kg

i was tinking
since i posted my horrendous weight here aredi
tink i shld post my periodic weight measurements too
to motivate myself
and for u to motivate me as well
hahaa

MY EXERCISE REGIME

2008-04-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

YOGA
3 times a week after work
tues, wed, thurs (starting 8 Jan)

SWIM
once a week
saturday morning (starting 12 Jan)
10 laps (20 lengths of the pool)

GYM
5 times a week during lunch time
mon, tues, wed, thurs, fri (starting 7 Jan)

GYM ROUTINE...
7 Jan
treadmill 15 mins
cross training machine 15 mins
bicep curl 50 reps
triceps curl 50 reps
leg raise 50 reps
ab crunch 50 reps
skipping 500 reps

now wat?

2008-03-08T14:48:00.001+08:00

hmph

just when i've set my heart
to do some housekeeping on my blog
i tink it's rather messy
the photo links are not working
my clock is missing
many of my frens' blogs are no longer active
kinda tired of the pink background
blah blah blah
wanted to start with the biggest problem
photos
and Flickr gave me the below sh*t

"You've run into one of the limits of a free account. When you moved from Yahoo! Photos, you were given a free trial of Flickr pro - our premium account that comes with unlimited storage and uploads. But, that's expired. If you are ready, you can purchase pro for just $24.95 a year. To be sure, none of your pictures have been deleted, and they'll all come back after you upgrade."

now wat?!
dun even noe where all my fotos are now
so means wat
i pay them to give me back MY fotos
then migrate them somewhere
to another online provider?
arghh
or i simply forget about them and reupload
ALL OVER AGAIN

any suggestions?
anyone?

='(

hahahaha

2008-02-22T17:39:00.000+08:00

looking at all my draft posts
realised i've got quite a few "hello!" entries
parked under drafts
hahaha
kinda amuses me
as if i tried to say hello so many times
but always not successful
end up all in drafts
show how much i've procrastinated
haha
anyways, i deleted them liaoz

i totally agree!!

2008-02-22T17:32:00.003+08:00

You Should Travel to Japan

From freak sightings in Harajuku to awesome sashimi, you'll love Japan.

And who knows? You might end up on Japanese TV!

What Asian Country Should You Visit?

=D

2008-02-22T17:20:00.002+08:00

He's Absolutely Committed to You!

Your guy is committed to you, as if you were already married

And hopefully, you show the same commitment to him

While you may have had your ups and downs, you've smoothed things out

If the two of you aren't serious, you will be soon

So start secretly planning your wedding

It may happen sooner than you think!

Will He Commit?

stuff to do when u are bored.. lol

2008-02-22T17:15:00.001+08:00

You Are 24% Emo

You're definitely not emo, but you do understand emo people a little. You are introspective, but not to the point of driving yourself crazy.

Are You Emo?

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.

You often find yourself on the outside looking in.

Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.

You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

In 1981 (the year you were born)

Ronald Reagan becomes president of the US

Minutes after Ronald Reagan becomes president, Iran releases 52 American hostages that had been held captive for 444 days

President Reagan is shot in the chest by would be assassin John Hinkley

Space shuttle Columbia, the world's first reusable spacecraft, is sent into space

A suspended walkway in the Kansas City Hyatt Regency Hotel collapses, killing 113

A female former lover files a "palimony" suit against tennis star Billie Jean King

President Reagan appoints Sandra Day O'Connor to be the first woman on the Supreme Court

The Pac-Man video game is introduced in the US

Alicia Keys, Elijah Wood, Kelly Rowland, Anna Kournikova, and Britney Spears are born

Los Angeles Dodgers win the World Series

Oakland Raiders win Superbowl XV

New York Islanders win the Stanley Cup

Raiders of the Lost Ark is the top grossing film

"Bette Davis Eyes" by Kim Carnes spends the most time at the top of the US charts

MTV debuts on cable television, playing music videos 24 hours a day

Gimme a Break premieres

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

CNY greetings

2008-02-16T18:33:00.002+08:00

juz wanna thank the following pple
for sending me CNY wishes
heh
=)

renshi
yiliang
patrick
lydia
feihuang
nigel
edalene
kelvin
agnes
jane
yueh eh
soo hoon
jiaqin
fong kuan
simon
william
anna
lingyi

i miss being a girl

2008-01-31T14:40:00.000+08:00

i cut my hair on monday, 28/01/08
i mean cut, as in,
really cut
short
not trim, CUT
above shoulder
hahaha
rebonded my hair also
due to the volume of my hair
cutting it short will make it lighter
and “float” and hence giving the “pong pong” look
not so much like afro head la
but u noe, pong pong
lol
for those who noe
u r suppose to refrain from washing ur hair
for two/three days
after redonding
which i did (i noe i noe, so eeks rite)
but anyways
which means i didn’t exercise for 2 whole days
which was why i weighed myself today again
after the routine weigh on monday
and miraculous i lost 0.4kg
hahaha
but anyways, back to my hair
i kinda miss it
was in the shower washing my hair
and it felt like there’s nothing to wash
previously when applying conditioner
i’ll flip all my hair to the front
and apply conditioner from the roots to the ends
and slowly run my fingers through the hair
to ease out any knots
now dat i can’t flip my hair
i’m not sure how to apply the conditioner
it’s like applying shampoo
where u dump a lump of shampoo on ur head
and scrunch up all the hair
and scrub everything in a mess
it’s kindof weird to apply conditioner that same way lor
and after showering
i’m not sure how to dry my hair also
previously i’ll flip my hair (yes, again) to the front
and wrap all of it in the towel for a few minutes
for the towel to soak up the excess water
now that i can’t flip my hair
i can only dry it by rubbing all my hair in a mess
feels kindof weird too la
and after washing
combing my hair is like effortless
not like it’s a bad thing
but it feels really weird
like the hair suddenly ends there
and there’s nothing more to comb
lol
i complained to my colleagues the moment i got back from gym
and one of them was like
“u miss being a girl rite”
i was like “omg, ya! dat sounds so rite!”
i miss being a girl
in some sense at least
all the hair management thing
so, it’s not like i feel like i’m a boy la
dat’s so wrong lor
hahahahaha

okok, i tink i sound like a whiny lil bitch
giving so much detail about how i wash my hair
but for those who noe me
i haven’t cut my hair short
since i grad from sec sch lor!
it’s always been long
trimmed, layered, shaped, rebonded
but still LONG
so
cant blame me for being whiny
and dun get me wrong okay
i LOVE my new hairstyle
juz need some time to get used to managing it

bleah

2008

2008-01-07T14:58:00.000+08:00

oh
by the way
here's wishing you a
happy x'mas &
merry new year
=)

I WEIGH 58KG!!!!! ='(

2008-01-07T14:52:00.000+08:00

as much as i'm ashamed to put the above title
i am also equally determined to use it to motivate myself
looking on the brighter side
i have not reached 60kg (yet)
(if i do, i'll juz hide at home until i get a liposuction lor)
looking on the darker side
i have NEVER, i repeat, NEVER
weighed so much in my ENTIRE life before!!
saw the horribly huge digits and i was in denial
i almost smashed the weighing machine juz now lor
*wails*
silvia, my fren cum colleague cum drinking buddy
and i are determined to slim down
and to make full use of the office gym
so, we'll be hitting the gym during lunch time
and do the gym routine in the topmost post
i forward-dated the post so dat it will always be on top
we'll review the gym routine in about 2 weeks or so
depending on our fitness progress
and decide on how much to increase
then i'll juz add it into the above post
for tracking purposes
on top of dat
i'll be going to the swimming pool
and yoga classes on my own also

wish me luck in slimming down! =D

my boy boy turned 2!!

2007-11-03T11:48:00.000+08:00

hi guys
sorry for blogging so sporadically
as usual
procrastination
haha

anyways, my chino boy turned 2 years old
on 7 sept 2007
okok
i noe that's like 2 months ago
lol
i'll TRY not to procrastinate so much okies
=p
070907
hmm
quite nice number hor
ahaha
not much celebrations la
juz bought him a cake from US Doggie Bakery

see last pic
i love him so much
i put his photo as wallpaper in my office comp
haha
he's adorable la =)

说话的艺术。。

2007-09-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

急事，慢慢地说！
大事，清楚地说！
小事，幽默地说。
没把握的事，谨慎地说；
没发生的事，不要胡说。
做不到的事，别乱说。
伤害人的事，不能说。
讨厌的事，对事不对人的说。
开心的事，看场合说。
伤心的事，不要见人就说。
别人的事，小心地说。
自己的事，听听自己的心怎么说。
现在的事，做了再说；
未来似事，过了再说。
如果我有失误的地方，
请一定要对我说！

In loving memory of Ella's dog, 薔薔

2007-08-28T12:35:00.000+08:00

=~~(

watch the MV here

还记得你喜欢咬著我的手
然后给我你嘴里的球
要我陪你玩丢丢
你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵
窝在我的身旁
没有烦忧
在梦里遨游
好狗狗好狗狗
谢谢你陪妈咪这么久
你并没有离开我
是搬到天堂生活
蔷蔷你要记得我
你不要走丢
快快找到天使
在天堂给我保佑
蔷蔷不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中

friends..

2007-08-28T00:09:00.002+08:00

of the fun times

was looking ard my comp to look for pics to upload onto friendster
ended up posting them on my blog instead
haha
the below photos taken during my 21st bdae party
(dat's 5 yrs ago lor!! omg)
had a 3D2N chalet at some chalet booked by my bro
when he was still wif the police force

i honestly dun remember
i actually had such a huge cake
hahaha
but i still remember where i got it from =)

the cake the coffee club gang "made" for me

guess who?!
hiding at the staircase
and eating the fries on his own

time flies
so much has changed
some friendships gone
some are still steadfast
some are, well, still there
i guess every once in a while
we ought to let our friends know that
we still remember them
juz the other day
arlene called me
coincidentally
i thought about her few days b4 she called me
no rhyme or reason
juz suddenly thought about her
and wondered how she is
it was a brief phonecall
not much details exchanged
but it was enough to let each other noe that
"i remember"
=)

bumped into xiang ru at yoga class the other day
i was sooooo happy
(omg, dat sounds abit lesbo.. lol)
but anyways
i was really happy
coz she's the only person whom i call "friend"
out of the so many pple i got to noe
during my 2.5yrs in DBS
wahhh
i sound pathetic hor
make 1 fren nia
hahaha
but honestly, i only regard her as fren
and ever since i left DBS
she's the only one dat i've thought about
and missed
(omg, dat sounds really lesbo.. lol)
i logged into friendster juz now
and saw her testimonial for me
memories flooded back
call it "fate" or wat
she came online at dat every instant
right on cue
we chatted for a while
i got distracted surfing friendster
she didn't seem in a chatty mood also
and she went offline after awhile

it's really nice tinking about friends
about wat we used to do
all the fun and laughter we had
but sometimes it's sad
when we drift apart
coz everyone's busy with work
relationships, family, new friends
i guess it takes effort
to bring back the good times
it's nice to meet up an old friend
and be able to pick up from where we left off

只想告诉我所有的朋友
虽然我们不常联络
我也可能忘了你的生日
但我永远不会忘记
我们在一起的快乐时光
你们不只是我的记忆
你们都已成了我的美好回忆

i may not be as involved in your lives as before
but i'm still here
and i always will be

where did the phrase "fuck spider" come from?

2007-08-24T15:37:00.000+08:00

for fun, laughter, peace and joy

last nite
i was out with my galfren
being stressed out at work
scattered-brain for the whole day
having a pimple outbreak
and being refused entry to yoga class
all at the same time
she was kinda, u know,
aggressive
and having not met up for quite some time
we had loads to update each other
and she was telling me some of her grievances at work
and somewhere in the conversation
i thought i heard her mention the phrase "fuck spider"
it didn't strike me at that particular point in time
but on my way home
that part of the conversation containing the phrase
suddenly struck me
i heard my bf use it before
and i tink i heard it somewhere before
but u know, as usual
u noe dat vulgarities are vulgarities
being used to express certain emotions
(mainly frustrations)
but most of them is nothing but an expression
and has no real meaning to it
in fact, i found it amusing whenever i hear the phrase
spider so small , how to fuck?
so, i guess it’s like kinda insulting to someone
if u ask him to go fuck spider
oh well, i guess vulgarities are meant to be insulting
but last nite as i thought about the phrase
i was juz tinking
why spider?
most (hokkien) vulgarities include genitalia
be it male or female genitalia
but somehow
dat’s the most common and “popular” vulgarity
maybe this vulgarity (fuck spider) is English
and not hokkien
dat's why
but still
why “spider”?
i brushed it off as a passing thought
but to my surprise
after 1 night’s sleep
and more than half the day gone
the question popped up in my head
juz moments ago
prompting me that my sub-conscious mind
is craving for this curiosity to be satisfied
and so, i typed the phrase “fuck spider”
into the trusty google search engine
and some light was shed
lol

The below definition is extracted from
The Coxford Singlish Dictionary

FUCK SPIDER
Of uncertain origin, this term often connotes extreme frustration. The general consensus is that it originates from the Army (the source of many creative Singlishphrases), where a "spider" was dirt in the barrel of one's rifle. If during inspection, you found a "spider" in your rifle, you'd have to strip it and clean it all over again. Hence, "fuck spider" would either be a common expletive amongst recruits, or an exhortation by an annoyed inspecting officer/NCO. Some, however, believe itdates back to an old practice amongst boys to catch spiders in the undergrowth, house them in small boxes and make them fight.

got this off the forum..

2007-08-21T13:10:00.000+08:00

1. Your dog gives you total commitment and affection.
As humans, we need to love and be loved in ways that are uncomplicated, pure and dependable. Your pet gives you loyalty and unconditional love. He is always loyal, affectionate, and totally committed.

2. Your dog needs no reason to love you.His brain is wired differently from a human's. So he can love you without having to think about it, he simply has no choice.

3. Your dog cares about your inner qualities, not how you look.When someone cares about appearances alone, he sometimes misses the good inside. But because your dog looks at your inner traits, he knows your true person.

4. Your dog's love is unconditional.No matter how bad your day is, your dog will always be there to greet you at the door with a wagging tail.

5. Dogs don't hold grudges like people do.Dogs make the best companions. In a fragmented, detached society, where our extended families have moved away, we often don't know our neighbors, divorce is common, and work has become unstable or unpleasant for many - people find it easier to be with their dogs than with one. Thus, the bond between humans and dogs grows stronger than ever.

6. You can be any way you want and your pet will still love you, no matter what.If only humans could be as accepting of each other and show as much love and concern. Pets get their end of the bargain, too, because we respond by lavishing them with organic treats and high-quality health care.

7. Dogs show they have feelings, too. They have mastered the art of integrating themselves into the social system of humans and thriving there. They show emotion - love, anxiety, curiosity - and make us believe they are capable of the full range of human feelings.

8. Dogs talk to us, without having to speak.They jump for joy when we come home, put their heads on our knees and stare longingly into our eyes. Ah, we think, at last, the love and loyalty we so richly deserve and so rarely receive. Over thousands of years of living with humans, dogs have become our reliable sidekicks with the particularly appealing characteristic of being unable to speak. We are therefore free to fill in the blanks with what we need to hear. (What the dog may really be telling us, most of the time, is, "Feed me.")

9. Dogs know and understand our moods.Humans and dogs have bonded in such a way that dogs have become amazingly skilled at reading our behavior, especially when it comes to food and care. They figure out our moods: what makes us happy, what moves us. When they respond to our moods, we think they're crazy about us. They seem emotionally supportive yet complex, able to understand their owners in a profound though wordless way. Meanwhile, men love dogs because they are perfect pals, happy to go places and do things, but unable to hold or demand conversations.

10. Your dog has a give-and-take relationship with you.
Dogs have figured out how to insinuate themselves into human society in ways that benefit us both. We get affection and attention. They get the same, plus food, shelter and protection. To describe our relationship in this way doesn't trivialise our love, it simply explains it.

petition against new AVA rules

2007-08-15T13:05:00.000+08:00

pls sign if u wish to =)

http://www.gopetition.com/online/13800.html

the forum that i'm active in came up with this
we are actually gonna hold meetings to discuss
so cool rite, getting united =)
i tink the new rulings are not very rational too
hope this works

the 5 dreaded questions..

2007-08-08T13:57:00.000+08:00

lol

got this from a forum.. enjoy..

===================================

The 5 questions most feared by men are:
1. What are you thinking about?
2. Do you love me?
3. Do I look fat in this?
4. Do you think she is prettier than me?
5. What would you do if I died?

What makes these questions so difficult is that every one is guaranteed to explode into a major argument if the man answers incorrectly (i.e., tells the truth). Therefore, as a public service, each question is analyzed below, along with possible responses.

Question # 1: What are you thinking about?
The proper answer to this, of course, is: " I'm sorry if I've been pensive, dear. I was just reflecting on what a warm, wonderful, thoughtful, caring, intelligent woman you are, and how lucky I am to have met you." This response obviously bears no resemblance to the true answer, which most likely is one of the following:
a. Football.
b. Golf.
c. How fat you are.
d. How much prettier she is than you
e. How I would spend the insurance money if you died.

Perhaps the best response to this question was offered by Al Bundy, who once told Peg, "If I wanted you to know what I was thinking, I would be talking to you!"

Question # 2: Do you love me?
The proper response is: "YES!" or, if you feel a more detailed answer is in order, "Yes, dear."

Inappropriate responses include:
a. Oh Yeah, shit-loads.
b. Would it make you feel better if I said yes?
c. That depends on what you mean by love.
d. Does it matter?
e. Who, me?

Question # 3: Do I look fat?
The correct answer is an emphatic: "Of course not!"

Among the incorrect answers are:
a. Compared to what?
b. I wouldn't call you fat, but you're not exactly thin.
c. A little extra weight looks good on you.
d. I've seen fatter.
e. Sorry what did you say? I was just thinking about how I would spend the insurance money if you died.

Question # 4: Do you think she's prettier than me?
Once again, the proper response is an emphatic: "Of course not!"

Incorrect responses include:
a. Yes, but you have a better personality
b. Not prettier, but definitely thinner
c. Not as pretty as you when you were her age
d. Define pretty
e. Sorry what did you say ? I was just thinking about how I would spend the insurance money if you died.

Question # 5: What would you do if I died?
A definite no-win question. (The real answer, of course, is "Buy a Lotus and a Boat"). No matter how you answer this, be prepared for at least an hour of follow-up questions, usually along the these lines:

WOMAN: Would you get married again?
MAN: Definitely not!
WOMAN: Why not - don't you like being married?
MAN: Of course I do.
WOMAN: Then why wouldn't you remarry?
MAN: Okay, I'd get married again.
WOMAN: You would? (with a hurtful look on her face)
MAN: (makes audible groan)
WOMAN: Would you sleep with her in our bed?
MAN: Where else would we sleep?
WOMAN: Would you put away my pictures, and replace them with pictures of her?
MAN: That would seem like the proper thing to do.
WOMAN: And would you let her use my golf clubs?
MAN: She can't use them; she's left-handed.
WOMAN: - - - silence - - -
MAN: Shit.

rainy days..

2007-07-29T17:06:00.000+08:00

sianz

wanted to bring chino for a swim today
at Petgamart located at Paris Ris
but it rained!!
couldn't walk him ydae coz of rain also
now he's sulking away at one corner
mayb i shld buy a poncho or raincoat for him
hmmm

i signed up to be a volunteer ydae
actually i signed chino up la
with Therapy Dogs, Singapore aka TDS
coz i tink chino might make it as a therapy dog
no doubt he tries to dominate other dogs
but he's got a good temperament with humans
especially kids
and i tink dogs can really be comforting
they can sense how humans are feeling
and they somehow can emphathise
and provide a soothing presence
being such a spoilt brat and couch potato at home
i tink it's time for him to do something for the community
he'll have to pass temperament test
in order to be certified as a therapy dog
now waiting for the pple in charge to call me
and then arrange for details =)

nuazzz

2007-07-28T20:05:00.000+08:00

rested

slacked the whole day
really WHOLE day
munched some breakfast at 10+
watched tv
ate lunch at 2+
fell asleep while watching tv
woke up about 3+
opened my mails
as in, postal mails
surfed forums, blogs
played silly online games

chatted with nanfeng for a while
realised i forgot my godson's bdae
oops
in fact
i realised i forgot alot pple's bdae too
double oops

chatting with nanfeng
he was telling me he tinks about coffee club sometimes
my sentiments exactly
juz accidentally bumping into galvin dat day
brought back memories too
and of coz, during our infrequent meetups
we talked about coffee club most of the time
it's so strange isn't it
it's not as if we worked togather for like 10, 20 yrs
it was a mere few yrs
but yet
we simply clicked
work there was mundane after we got the hang of it
but occassionally challenging
when we had to work full shifts
or prepare drinks for the entire restaurant
or both
yet, during the time when i was there
i gotta admit
i kinda looked forward to going work
even though the pay was barely enough to get by
i guess it's what i call fate ba =)
really glad that the few of us who are close
continued to stay in touch
and made efforts to turn up
for the occassional meetup

my 1st Live on Board experience

2007-07-24T21:37:00.000+08:00

went diving at tioman
on friday the 13th
hurhur
trip was from 13 to 15 July 2007
dive ops is Mark & Charles Scuba
boat is owned by them
live on board
which means to do everything on the boat
boarded RUBY at mersing jetty on friday nite
touched land again on sun evening
didn't puke at all
so proud of myself
lol
but trust me
it was really tough okay
for someone who gets motion sickness sooo easily
guess i was really lucky to pull it off
=)

enjoy the pics!
not many though
waters was choppy
had a hard time holding on to the camera
and balancing myself on the deck
so i gave up la
=p

oh ya
i migrated my pics to Flickr
no more Yahoo photos
coz they say it's closing down
talking about Yahoo
is the entire Yahoo closing down or something?!
they closed my email account lor!!!
on the pretext that i didn't log in for a long time
like more than 3 months
which is so not true lor!!
blardy hell
forget it
didn't bother to try to get the account back
coz they explicitly said dat ALL my mail is gone
and not retrievable
EVER
-_-
fine lor
i've still got gmail
anyways, i use dat account mainly for subscriptions
u know those kind of info
good to know but can do without kind
or simply for fun, peace and laughter kind
or those eat full liao nothing to do can surf around kind
so, ya, guess i'll have to do without those subsciptions ba
=p

anyways, ,back to my photos on this blog
currently only this tioman trip link works
if u click on the rest of the links
linking to previous photos
you won't see the pics
gimme some time la
i'll update the links soon

promise

heart wrenching..

2007-07-13T08:25:00.000+08:00

=~~(

Born to Die

Band Chalet!!

2007-06-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

had our usual periodic band chalet on 2 Jun
view pics here!!
at CAAS bungalow at pasir ris
much smaller bunch of pple this time
and more family oriented
coz got more kids
haha
kelvin, suiqiang and antz brought their kids
tho i brought my camera
but was kinda lazy to take pics
haha
most shots were taken just before we were leaving
just to justify my bringing of the camera
kekeke

new pics!!

2007-05-31T20:43:00.000+08:00

lazy to write

so let the pics do the talking
hehe
pics from my batam trip
doggie pics from gathering
at west coast dog run
enjoy viewing =D

Shop @ Red cross

2007-05-07T13:45:00.000+08:00

back from penang!!

2007-04-10T16:43:00.000+08:00

tired but happy

hi guys
i'm back!!
missed me??
hehe
took 701 photos
dunno wat i take oso
muahahaha

updates later
=D

天使

2007-04-01T12:13:00.000+08:00

歌手：五月天
专辑：为爱而生

你就是我的天使
保护着我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤

你就是我的天使
给我快乐的天使
甚至我学会了飞翔

飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎么样
只要有你就会是天堂

像孩子依赖着肩膀
像眼泪依赖着脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖
给我力量

像诗人依赖着月亮
像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使
你是天使
你是我最初和最后的天堂

Rainbow Bridge Poetry

2007-04-01T12:02:00.000+08:00

Rainbow Bridge Poetry

If a dog is your teacher......

2007-04-01T11:43:00.000+08:00

You would learn stuff like......

When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.
Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joyride.
Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure ecstasy.

When it's in your best interest -- practice obedience.
Let others know when they've invaded your territory.
Take naps and stretch before rising.
Run, romp, and play daily.

Thrive on attention and let people touch you.
Avoid biting, when a simple growl will do.
On warm days, stop to lie on your back on the grass.
On hot days, drink lots of water and lay under a shady tree.

When you're happy, dance around and wag your entire body.
No matter how often you're scolded, don't buy into the guilt thing and pout... run right back and make friends.

Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.
Eat with gusto and enthusiasm. Stop when you have had enough.

Be loyal.

Never pretend to be something you're not.
If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.
When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by and nuzzle them gently.

--- Author Unknown

Alone Again...

2007-04-01T11:41:00.000+08:00

I wish someone could tell me
What it is that I've done wrong,
Why I have to stay chained up
And left alone so long.

They seemed so glad to have me
When I came here as a pup.
There were so many things we'd do
While I was growing up.

They couldn't wait to train me
As companion and as friend.
They told me they would never fear
Being left alone again.

The children said they'd feed me,
Said they'd brush me every day,
They'd play with me and walk me,
If only I could stay.

But now the family hasn't time.
They often say I shed.
They wont allow me in the house,
Not even to be fed.

The children never walk me.
They always say, "Not Now!"
I wish that I could please them.
Won't someone tell me how?

All I have is love, you see,
I wish they would explain,
Why they said they wanted me
Then left me on a chain.

From The Detroit News 2/25/1999
Author Unknown

Do I Go Home Today?

2007-04-01T11:32:00.000+08:00

of a dog

My family brought me home cradled in their arms.
They cuddled me and smiled at me and said I was full of charm.
They played with me and laughed with me and showered me with toys.
I sure do love my family, especially the little girls and boys.

The children loved to feed me; they gave me special treats.
They even let me sleep with them - all snuggled in the sheets.
I used to go for walks, often several times a day.
They even fought to hold the leash, I'm very proud to say.

These are the things I'll not forget - a cherished memory.
I now live in the shelter - without my family.
They used to laugh and praise me when I played with that old shoe.
But I didn't know the difference between the old one and the new.

The kids and I would grab a rag, for hours we would tug.
So I thought I did the right thing when I chewed the bedroom rug.
They said that I was out of control and would have to live outside.
This I didn't understand, although I tried and tried.

The walks stopped, one by one; they said they hadn't time.
I wish that I could change things; I wish I knew my crime.
My life became so lonely in the backyard, on a chain.
I barked and barked all day long to keep from going insane.

So they brought me to the shelter but were embarrassed to say why.
They said I caused an allergy, and then they each kissed me goodbye.
If I'd only had some training as a little pup.
I wouldn't have been so hard to handle when I was all grown up.

"You only have one day left", I heard the worker say.
Does that mean I have a second chance?
Do I go home today?

chino..

2007-03-31T18:58:00.000+08:00

went WCDR juz now
wasn't raining when we reached
but ground was muddy
see 2nd pic, notice his muddy belly? (eeeww!)
managed to let him run around for about an hour
before the rain came
juz a few pics of my furry one to share wif u guys

fotos!!

2007-03-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

broke

bought myself a Fujifilm FinePix F31
and a Epson CX5900 from the IT show @ suntec
so now broke liao =[
anyhow, had two gatherings over the past 2 weekends
wif my frens from Dogsforum Singapore aka DFS
go see fotos okies

till later

in the name of love......

2007-03-13T19:16:00.001+08:00

hmmm

looking at the several blog drafts i have
(forgot why i didn't post them)
came across this draft
containing the below quotes
which i took from a chinese novel
dat xiang ru lent me a long time ago
the novel is a sad one
coz every character is another character's "spare"
seems like everyone in the story
is either having an affair
or loving someone he/she shldn't
or loving someone who doesn't reciprocate
and the story shows how everyone one is related
like fren of fren, colleague etc
really sad
but pretty realistic
makes me tink about wat i would/should do
if i were one of the characters
forgot why i didn't post these quotes
but anyhow
here they are
sad truths
in the name of love

===============

当一个女人感到幸福
也一定有另一个女人
因为她的幸福而痛苦

===============

暗恋和单恋都是自虐

===============

少年的暗恋是悠长而轻盈的
成年之后的暗恋却是漫长而苦涩的

===============

跟男人做爱之后要自己回家的女人是最委屈最没地位的

===============

爱情并不迷信
而是我们迷信爱情
破除迷信的过程是漫长而痛苦的

===============

成长
便是接受一个不完美的自己
和一个不理想的回忆
也接受这个世界的不完美和不理想

===============

我们放下尊严
放下个性
放下固执
都是因为放不下一个人

===============

恋爱是一个追求不自由的过程
当你埋怨太不自由了
就是你不爱他的时候

===============

不如你送我一场春雨
那么即使我流泪
在雨中
也不容易被你看到

i juz realised......

2007-03-13T13:57:00.000+08:00

hmmph

the pink clock
at the top right hand corner of my blog
disappeared
and i can't seem to fix it
the html code is still in the blog template leh
knn la

pearls of wisdom for non-pet owners who visit and like to complain about our pets…

2007-03-13T13:26:00.001+08:00

They live here. You don’t.

If you don’t want their hair on your clothes, stay off the furniture.

I like my pet a lot better than I like most people.

To you, it’s an animal. To me, he/she is an adopted son/daughter who is short, hairy, walks on all fours and doesn’t speak clearly.

Dogs and cats are better than kids. They eat less, don’t ask for money all the time, usually come when called, never drive your car, don’t hang out with drug-using friends, don’t smoke or drink, don’t worry about buying the latest fashions, don’t wear your clothes, don’t need a gazillion dollars for college, and if they get pregnant, you can sell the results.

oh my golly gosh!!

2007-03-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

analysing the photo below
i look......
66% like Matsu Takako
64% like Stephen Chow (OMG!)
63% like Vivian Hsu
61% like Nicole Linkletter
59% like Janie Tienphosuwan
58% like Jericho Rosales
57% like Reese Witherspoon
55% like Michelle Chong,
Demi Moore and
Jessica Alba

now, for this photo
i look......
75% like Zoe Tay,
Kathy Bates and
Michelle Kwan
71% like Takizawa Hideaki
67% like Kim Hee-sun
64% like Ninet Tayeb
63% like Kate Hudson and
Choi Ji-woo
62% like Song Hye Kyo and
Daniela Pestova

hahaha
quite fun la
to find out which celeb u look like
the webbie was given to me by my colleague lydia
go try it for yourself!!
lol
but muz register for account de =p

grooming session gone wrong =(

2007-02-24T14:04:00.000+08:00

sad

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/viewPost2052.aspx

just some thoughts..

2007-01-30T19:16:00.000+08:00

pondering

3 breakups in a month
all involving my closest frens
kinda set me thinking about certain issues
especially with regard to fidelity and presence
are they closely related?
or even inter-dependent?
i’ve heard many stories of infidelity
and all sorts of reasons/excuses for it
in my opinion
infidelity is never justifiable
all the so-called reasons
are just ways of pushing the blame to the other party
“things just happen”
“you didn’t have time for me”
“you weren’t there when i needed you”
and stuff like dat

being separated from my neighbour for 23 days now
with another 13 days to go
(i know it’s not a long time, but it seems like eternity to me)
i tink it’s really agonizing for both parties
human beings, guys included
need presence
(u know, i’ve never heard him say “i miss u” so often before)
heehee
just the other nite
i was feeling all depressed and pms-y
coz i was pining so much for him
and i found myself struggling to remember
how everything was like before 8 jan
his smile
his hug
his hand
his touch
everything
of coz i could remember
but the memories seemed so distant and fuzzy
and that got me even more depressed
as i braced myself up
collected my thoughts
and got a hold on my emotions
i started looking at all the things dat involved us
(i kept a little bag of things and a “diary”)
and felt the closeness once again =)

with that
i started tinking about my frens
who were victims of long-distance relationships
as in, being far away for a really long time
i feel really sad for them
but i’m glad they all moved/are trying to move on

i’m not condoning infidelity
of coz it’s not right
i agree it’s really not easy
to maintain a long-distance relationship
and i can admit
i’m not sure if i would be able to survive one
one can’t help it when feelings fade
due to a multitude of reasons
BUT he/she should be responsible enough
to handle the situation maturely
and not two-time the other party
and then come up wif plenty of excuses to justify the act
i’m saying this becoz
a guyfren of mine is now suffering hell
due to the irresponsibility of his gf
who seems to me, is deluded and being extremely selfish
mayb she’s too prideful to admit dat she’s wrong
it’s definitely easier to push the blame and victimize herself
rather than admit that she had a change of heart
and was found out in a not-so-glamorous way

sigh

this incident reminded me of the betrayal episode
which i experienced wif my so-called fren
and made me realize just how fragile
relationships and friendships can be

to all my true frens out there
and of coz my neighbour in korat

i love you
muacks

FSD retreat

2007-01-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

went bintan last friday for dept retreat
19th to 21st Jan
sponsored trip by the company
of the many many resorts in bintan
they chose to go to the only one dat i’ve been to twice
bintan lagoon resort
last yr, i went there twice
both times stayed at the villas aka chalets
oh well
trip is paid for by company
so cannot hiam lor

juz using this chance to intro my dept abit
it's known as the Financial Services Department (FSD)
made up of the following divisions……
Director’s Office (DO)
Accounting Group (APMD)
Management Reporting Group (MRG)
Derivatives Group (DG)
Settlement - Operations 1 (Ops 1)
Custody & Control - Operations 2 (Ops 2)
Process Management Office (PMO)

i belong in Ops 2
here’s a pic of the division

back: the only thorn among the roses (lol!) – jia jing
middle: celina, marilyn, anna, bee peng, windy, me, silvia, lydia
seated: chwee wei, jessica, belinda, margaret
steffie's absent coz she gotta nurse her baby
celina is our divisional manager
a young, zesty, mother of 3 boys
successful hor? *envious*

took this pic at “the kelong” on sat nite
it's an eating place situated in Nirwana Gardens
which is another resort in bintan
food was superb
10-course dinner lor
seafood was really fresh and yummy!
so much more satisfying than fri’s dinner lor
on fri, there were different ferry timings
more than half the dept left office at 3.30
to take the 5.30pm ferry
leaving a few of us to look after things
in case there were any last minute glitches
i was amongst the last to leave
took the 8pm ferry
reached the resort abt 9pm (bintan time)
went for dinner at the poolside
and the food was so disappointing lor
went rackey-ing around the place wif lydia
stumbled upon a club called silk
cover charge was IDR24,000 = s$4
but the lady at the door juz brought us in
bermudas, slippers and all
haha
staff in there were very nice
showing us ard the place
and telling us wat they have
there’s a live band
which played indo songs and english songs
we were pretty satisfied at the place
so went back out to get more of our pple to join us
only managed to get our other teammate, silvia
the rest were too tired to do anything
so went back to the place and settled on some somfy seats
juz finished placing our orders
when our colleagues from Ops 1 joined us too
didn’t know they are so happening lor!!
all the wildness and party energy never seen before

apart from the sumptuous dinner mentioned above
the whole of sat was pretty boring
cooped up in the meeting room
to talk about departmental issues
HR issues
yadda yadda
and every division had to put up some sort of presentation
to let the rest of the dept know
wat they do and why they are important
our director made it into a competition thingy
in order to further motivate us
the presentations were made up of powerpoint slides
and photos / videos
but we had much fun putting it together
and guess wat?
Ops 2 won 1st prize!!
heehee
300 bucks worth of watson’s voucher
nothing big la, but still... =)
so dat’s 20 bucks each
all the talks and presentation took up the entire day
after dinner at “the kelong”
some went for mahjong
others went for karaoke
we went to the karaoke rooms to take a look
there wasn’t enuff space for everyone lor
so we went silk again
me, silvia and lydia left early
coz lydia wanted to shower and sleep
silvia and i had 2nd round of drinking at the lobby
watching soccer on the big screen
and chatting the nite away
tried carlsberg wif guiness stout for the 1st time
not bad leh
quite nice taste =)

sunday morning was outdoor day
went to the nearby adventure thingy to play a few games
the place is managed by FOCUS
felt abit like back-to-school days
when i went for camps, orientation programs, OBS
where we played teambonding games
pretty fun la
coincidentally, 1 of the facilitators is my junior lor
he (andy) is from SAJC 22nd student council
i was from 21st mah
he recognised me and introduced himself to me
but up till now, i don't remember anything of him (oops)
memory not so good la
8 yrs ago leh, how to remember
some more the ratio of councillor to students is so huge
easier for them to remember 1 of me
than me remembering so many of them lor
anyways, the games were pretty fun
got to see the other side of my colleagues
and got to noe more pple from my dept also
besides the game facilitators
there were 2 other guys taking pictures and videos of us
in awkward positions and wif funny expressions
really laughed our heads off
when we watched the videos and saw the processed pics
at the end of the session
after the de-brief
we returned to the hotel and checked out
after having lunch and showering ourselves clean
reached singapore in the evening
and KO till the next morning lor
haven't felt so tired in ages already
age is really catching up liao
hahaha

健康就是美

2007-01-24T17:52:00.000+08:00

but i'm still not 美 leh =(

i’ve been pretty healthy for the past 16 days
actually quite amazed dat my body can take it
tink i’ve exercised far more than i had
in the past few months added up lor
muz pen them down to further enhance my 成就感
hehe

mon – bodycombat @ bugis
tues – nua at home
wed – hot yoga
thurs – nua at home
fri – kickbox (lunchtime)
fri – bodycombat @ raffles (after work)
sat – blading @ ECP
sun – yogalates, therapy yoga, blading @ ECP

mon – hatha yoga
tues – cycling class @ bugis
wed – nua at home
thurs – erica’s bdae dinner @ parkway
fri – dept retreat @ bintan
sat – dept retreat @ bintan
sun – dept retreat @ bintan

mon – nua at home
tues – boxercise class @ bugis
wed – hot yoga
thurs – gym workout (lunchtime)
thurs – ABT @ orchard
fri – goin for dinner & drinks my girlfrens
but jin say she might wanna go gym
if she wants, den either I go wif her
or I go for yoga
and meet them for drinks after dat
still waiting for her answer

see, quite a healthy lifestyle rite??
hehehehe
but ah
the 成就感 is like emotional only leh
as in like, proud of myself dat
i am actually capable of so much physical activity
no physical confirmation lor
at the end of the first week
i actually slimmed down by 1 kg
zhenjin said overall i looked slimmer
but i tink she’s juz consoling me lor
coz all the fats at the unwanted areas are still intact lor
so, i dare not imagine
which part of my body became 1kg less =~(
and then ah
2nd week i put on the 1 kg again lor
haizzz
the only consolation i get is dat
my hair is pretty soft now
so it can be quite 美美 at times
(at times only! coz i still get bad hair days)
coz every time i go gym or yoga
i’ll bring hair treatment
and sit in the steam room for as long as i can
feels really good to juz sit, relax
and let the steam do all the work

haven’t plan for any gym/yoga classes
for coming weekend yet
coz got a few things dat i need/want to do
1) pack my wardrobe
2) tidy up mp3s in my comp
i noticed a lot of duplicates and unnamed ones
3) send in neighbour’s car for servicing
4) buy contact lenses
coz i tore 1 during the retreat =(
5) wanna go shop for gym/yoga wear
while i’m still at this exercise thingy
muz “invest” abit of money in
so dat i can keep up this exercise/yoga regime
6) might be goin for a doggy outing
wif fellow forumers from dogsforum.sg
7) feel like goin blading or swimming
long time no swim liao
but muz depend on weather
madness lor
keep raining non-stop
island-wide some more
damn sian
but recently not too bad
so probably can exercise outdoors
yay!! anybody interested?

(haiyo, like so many things to do in 2 days hor)

oh! time to go home!
these few days quite slack in office
so will probably be catching up on my blogging
look out for my posts!! =D

36 days =~(

2007-01-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

rainy

4 days crawled past
ever since i changed job
every week seemed to fly past
i enjoy my work
i love my life
i love my friends
and in the midst of all the happiness
days, weeks and months simply flew past
in the blink of an eye
but the past 4 days went by so slowly
i could hardly believe it
32 more days leh
how? how? how?!
now i've to plan ahead
make plans for every free minute
so as to occupy myself
not let my wild imagination get the better of me
and to reduce the longingness
well, looking on the bright side
at least now it doesn't feel weird to tok on the fone
when we 1st got together
and our parents were in the process of finding out
it wasn't very nice to go over to each other's house
or should i say, it's kinda awkward lar
coz of the fact that i knew his family
so long before i knew him
and my family knew him
so long before he knew me
if my memory serves me rite
we only talked on the fone once
for like 10 mins?
having the same thought in our heads
we were like "eh, very funny hor, so near, yet tok on the fone"
hahahaha
really lor
it felt so funny and we simply gave up
now, hearing his voice at the end of the day
even for a short while
completes my day

hello 2007!!

2007-01-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

ok, i noe the yr is not dat new aredi
but still
happy new year, everyone!!
had dinner wif the same gang of pple
as in, the christmas gang
lol
ate buffet at marina south
zhen fa live seafood
grease, smoke and all
i enjoyed myself =)
went nearby to play pool while waiting for 2 couples
sharon wif joseph & jiehao wif icy
went marina to watch the fireworks
pretty boring at first
but finale was nice though
here's the videos!! =D
sorry ah, fone 3 megapixels nia
so quality not very good

after the fireworks
it took us eons to get out of the carpark lor
went cyclone for a drink
it's a ktv pub along circular road

this year my entire family went out to party
leaving my poor chino home alone
my folks and sis went esplanade
reached home at 2am
me and neighbour reached home at 4am
my bro and sis-in-law reached home at 6am
wat a way to start 2007!

resolutions anyone?
i gave up setting them la
coz i'll forget wat they were
even before i start to accomplish them

christmas 2006

2006-12-26T10:34:00.000+08:00

silent nite

had x'mas dinner wif steve, kendi, erica, andy and my neighbour
at Venezia
it's an Italian restaurant at Singapore Art Museum
hou high class wor
lol
here's wat we ate
nice food wif fancy (and really long names)
haha
june, if u wanna take the pics to edit
go ahead okie =)

seared king scallop with lemon & blackcurrant vinnaigrette
wif king-sized plate as well
lol

lobster bisque flambeed with cognac
very thick and nice!! =D

we had 2 choices for main course
1) pan seared NZ ribeye with duck liver, red wine jus & gratin potato
i don't eat beef but i tried the duck liver
and i didn't like it leh
coz it's all mushy and soft (ewww!)
but i liked the gratin potato
like rosti (my fav!)

or 2) roasted US turkey & honey glazed ham, served with cranberry sauce & brown jus
turkey was tender and nice
but the sauce not enough
so kinda dry

christmas pudding with venezia gelato & fresh forest berries
the "pudding" is actually fruit cake leh
lol
the berries include, raspberry, blueberry and gooseberry

christmas cocktail

after dinner, it took us close to 2 hrs to decide where to go for countdown
and finally we decided!
to go home
wahahahaha
so anti-climax rite
but really couldn't tink of a place to go lor
coz not onz for the idea of squeezing (and getting squashed up) by crowds
so everyone headed home for our 二人世界
hehe
dat explains the description of this post: silent nite
coz we didn't go any noisy places
but i did enjoy myself
merry x'mas everyone!!

我的外婆

2006-12-11T18:05:00.000+08:00

missing her……

my maternal grandma passed away on 19 nov 2006
i visited her the day before she passed away
wif my neighbour, cousin, mum and sis
she looked healthy
had good appetite too
but there were a few points
dat made me feel dat something is amiss

for the 1st time in my life
she couldn’t recognize me
she thought i’m the daughter of my 大姨
she kept asking when my大姨 is going to visit her
now tinking abt it, mayb she knew her time was up soon
so she didn’t recognize me
coz she missed my大姨 too much and was yearning for her
my大姨is closest to her and visits her almost everyday
she kept asking if the lunar 9th month is over
she told me she dreamt of my grandpa (who passed away in 1989)
and he’s gonna fetch her to be wif him
but she told him to wait
(mayb coz she hasn’t seen all the pple who she wanna see yet ba)
but i guess it’s not really up to her to choose
coz a lot of her grandkids and great-grandkids
did not get to see her for the last time

she was always talked about dying
not wanting to be a burden to us etc etc
but never did she mention about my grandpa fetching her
mum said when a person is dying
he/she will dream of the “pple” who will come and fetch him/her
and these “pple” will tell the him/her roughly when they will come
so if an old folk/dying person keeps asking wat date/time it is
it’s a sign that he/she is about to go
oh well, there’s no scientific proof of it lar
but it’s “proven” at least for my grandpa and grandma

sometimes i can’t help but believe
the psychic ability dat horoscopes say scorpios have
and every time it happened
it never fails to amaze and shock me
i mentioned we visited her the day before she passed away
before we left, i found ants on her bed
and the bedsheets were soiled and dirty
so i requested the nurses to change them
they put my grandma on the wheelchair as they did the job
and we wheeled her out for some fresh air
we decided to leave her outside and she agreed
as our car reversed out of the nursing home
sitting in the front passenger seat
i waved goodbye to her and she waved back
suddenly, i had this strong feeling
that she’s saying her final goodbye
that after dat day, i will never get to see her again
there was this strange sad look in her eyes
dat i couldn’t put a finger on
the feeling made me uneasy
but i continued to wave at her until we were out of sight
and the very next day
news of her death came

her death was so sudden it shocked everyone
really devastating coz we were not prepared at all
we were even planning where to bring her for dinner on her bdae
according to the nurse who was wif her during her last moments
she was feeding her dinner
and suddenly she became unconscious
she was still breathing when they called for the ambulance
but by the time ambulance arrived
there was no more life in her
paramedics tried to resuscitate her but to no avail

throughout the 5-day wake
i felt as if i was doing all the chores for someone else
don’t know who, juz someone else,
anyone, anyone, but her
i was jolted back to reality, to the fact dat it’s her funeral
only when i’m alone or whenever my thoughts wander
coz the chores are mundane
so, most of the time
i was talking to my cousins about work and stuff
or detached, lost in my own world
zombified by shock and lack of sleep
and doing the chores wif a blank mind
so i keep forgetting dat it’s my beloved grandma
who’s lying in the cold wooden box behind the picture
plus the fact that it is closed
makes it even easier to forget who’s lying in there
and also, the photo was taken 47 years ago
so i can’t really relate it to the face of the grandma i’ve known

now tinking back
i tink the primary reason of me forgetting is becoz
throughout the wake, i haven’t really accepted the fact that she’s gone

the forgetting part is kindof good
coz i probably would have cried a lot more
if i were to see her face every time i walk past her

dunno wat to say of a funeral
it seems like a happy and sad event
wat a paradox lor
happy for my grandma coz
she’s finally free from misery
(coz she often complains abt stuff in the nursing home)
and reunited wif my grandpas
but it’s really saddening
coz i’ve grown so attached to her
and she seems so happy to see me every time
i’m glad dat at least i’m able to put a smile on her face
during funerals, families seem to become more united
which is a happy thing too
coz with 4 generations and more than 100 pple in the family
it’s only during such times kids get to learn of the existence of their relatives
especially those of the same “rank”
the mourning cloth pinned on our clothes were of different colours
and the colours reflect the person’s relation to the deceased
one of my cousins’ kids was asking him
why he’s wearing a different colour
and he candidly replied “coz my rank higher than u ma!”
from then on, we used “ranks” to explain
wat colour reflects wat kind of relation
my 4-yr-old niece, Nadine, came up to me one day and said
“do u know that Reynard kor kor is my cousin?”
she said it wif so much excitement as if
it’s the most impt discovery in the whole wide world
i can’t help but smile at her innocent face and ask
“yes i noe dat. but do u know dat ur daddy is my cousin?”
she looked at me wif the “omg, u’re kidding me” look on her face
so cute lor
hahahaha

another sad thing about funerals is that
due to differences in opinion
and the degree of closeness everyone is to the deceased
not everyone will totally agree on the decisions made
but most choose to keep quiet
juz to avoid conflict and confrontation
it’s during such times when u can see the other side
and actually realize who are the ones closest to the deceased
my cousin’s wife mentioned something which set me thinking
“those who cried the most are the lower ranking ones”
and the ones who have the least say in decisions
or rather, they were too upset crying to decide anything else
i wonder if anyone else noticed that

我二十五岁了!!

2006-11-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

realized i haven't blogged about my bdae celebrations yet
heehee
so here goes..
went to work as usual on 27th
after work
neighbour brought me to this super expensive jap restaurant
once, he was waiting for me to knock off
and he caught sight of this restaurant
decided to give it a try coz the ambience looked good
and indeed it is =)
didn’t know it's so expensive
until we sat down and looked at the menu
but decided to stay put since it's my special day
it’s a BBQ place
food served is very very fresh, esp the prawns
staff are extremely attentive and friendly
they took time to explain the different dishes
and wat sauce to go with wat
they sat us at this row of tables wif comfy sofa seats
curtains drawn between every table
they even drew the curtain “door” to give us more privacy
but everytime I looked up
(the curtain is kinda translucent, so they can still see us from outside)
they thought I wanted something
and someone would chiong in and ask “can I help?”
kinda ironic lar
wanna give us privacy yet they keep chionging in
lol
dat dinner cost $138.60!!
dat’s like 70 bucks per person
paying dat kind of $$
i would have high expectations lor
but they lived up to them
so, two thumbs up! =D

on the morning of 28th
me, my sis and neighbour
brought chino for his 1st swim at sentosa tanjong beach
damn cute lor see him swim
wanna upload the video dat i took using my hp
but now i can't find the cable =s
anyways, i was saying
chino damn cute lor
when he first saw the water
he plunged into it...
...and froze
he turned and gave me the confused look
i tink he didn't expect the green-blue patch to be water lor
hahahahaha
with some encouragement
he started paddling wif all fours
now i'm convinced dat dogs are born swimmers
he simply knew how to do it lor
no need to teach de
when turning left
he will stop kicking his left hind leg
and use it to pivot his body
so he kicked his front paws and right hind leg only
when turning right
he'll pivot on his right hind leg
so clever rite
and he seems to enjoy swimming
definitely gonna bring him for more swims
but thing is
the cleaning up after each trip is tiring lar
imagine all the sand on us and in the car
omg
tink gotta look for alternative swimming places liao

went for family dinner at a korean restaurant
called Hyang-to-gol in Amara Hotel
BBQ place (again!)
very nice too
though the ambience not so cosy as the jap restaurant
but they cooked for us lor!
so we juz sit and eat until full full
lol

now to thank all those who made my special day memorable
Agnes, 1st to sms me!! (read: on 27th)
sotong lar she..lol
next followed by my hot neighbour
who gave me pretty pink roses!!
plus a bracelet
and sang me bdae song when the clock stuck 12 =D
really really sweet of him to have done so much
after he has paid for my samsung D900 =x

bdae sms-es & presents throughout my special day include...
(in order of "appearance")
Daniel
Ronny
Kelvin
Raymond
Eugene
Sharmaine
Yixin
Xiao Tian
Xinyue
Jianyang
Jianjie
Jessie
during band prac.. (yes, i went for prac ok!)
Twee Kiang
Nick
Jocelyn
Antz? (dun rem, but I tink he did lar..lol)
Rick
Zhen Zhen
Kenneth
i tink there are a few more who wished me
but i forgot liao lar
heehee
at butterfactory..
Jingyi
Joseph
Edalene
Zhenjin
Yanping
Ronnie
Gerald
Stanley
Dean’s frens (Miki, EH and the who, who and who..lol)
belated wishes..
better late than never
it's still sweet of them to have remembered
Kendi
Arlene

oh ya, rec'd a huge bouquet of flowers
from my 小姑 and cousins
so sweet lor
delivered to my house on actual day =)

looking at the list
i realised dat the guys' wishes came before the gals'
hehehe
am i lucky or wat??

butterfactory is fun lar
dat nite, it was halloween party everywhere
and it was the first time i went to a halloween party
no, i didn't dress up
but it's fun looking at wat others attempt to be
devils, angels, monsters, nurses, doctors etc
sexy ones, kinky ones, weird ones
u name it, u have it
dat nite was really fun
actually, it's not the place
it's the company dat matters
luv u guys loads
muackz!

Musical Evening

2006-11-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

haven't heard this title for a long while
it's the name of my alma mater's annual band concert
this year, it's gonna be at esplanade!
*excited*
click here and scroll to the bottom for the publicity poster
which is purple in colour
it's crescent's 50th anniversary this yr
omg
10 yrs flew past lor
i still remember being in sec 3
performing for the 40th anniversary

anyways, since it's an anniversary celebration
the concert will include other CCAs
but i'm glad they used the band concert's name
and even more glad
dat they decided to include an alumni band segment
but thing is
i'm kinda worried lor
the alumni band had its 1st practice in sept
following practices will be on saturdays starting from 4 nov
i didn't go for prac on 4 nov
coz i was performing @ vch for ngee ann alumni band
so ydae was my 1st practice
total attendance was like, 10 pple? =x
learnt dat we're gonna perform 3 pieces
planned to have practices on weekdays
during 20 nov dat week
so total got 4 more practices b4 concert
realised dat bulk of the alumni band
will be made up of current graduating batch
they'll be joining in for practices
only after their last paper on 20th
which leaves them wif 3 practices

all in all, it's 6 practices to master 3 pieces
ngee ann alumni band took 2 months to master 2 pieces lor
oh man, i'm really praying for a miracle
let's hope crescentians will live up to the band's good name

got to know that the musical evening i/c
decided to buy up all the tix from SISTIC
(which i tink is a very bad move)
so i tink can only get tix thru the school's office
if u are interested, do contact me lar
i'll find out more during next band prac
or u can call the numbers on the publicity poster
and tell me about it
lol

come lar
gimme moral support

please?

thankful..

2006-11-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

had a tiff wif my bro last sunday
not sure if it's good or bad
could be good coz for those who know me long enuff
u all know dat the r/ship between me and my bro
ain't dat rosy
so, it's kind good dat we say so many things to each other
in such a short period of time?

haha.. siao rite
tinking dat a quarrel is gd
i'm trying to be optimistic lar

i'm pretty much affected by the whole incident
coz bits of the quarrel are juz plain unreasonable
which i simply cannot comprehend or come to terms wif
was so distracted at work on monday
i actually went crying in the toilet
my boss happened to walk in
and i actually confided in her
had to take leave on tuesday
coz i was so tired and dehydrated from crying
and also coz i did not eat or sleep well
really needed to take some time off
to relax and calm myself down

well, the gd thing abt this whole incident
is dat i learnt quite alot of stuff
from the pple involved
chino was so sweet
he sayang-ed me by licking away my tears
and let me cuddle him for as long as i needed
my neighbour was really great too
this post is actually for him
although i dun tink he reads my blog
juz wanna pen down my gratitude in words
honestly
i dun tink i would have survived the ordeal w/out him
coz my parents were away for holiday
so they were not around to neutralize things
he was around when it all happened
and simply did all the right things at the right time
and said all the right words too
even on the next day after the quarrel
all his little actions and words
really touched me to the core
and i really dunno how to express my gratitude
other than loving him more

really thankful to have him in my life
muackz =)

dum di dum dum =D

2006-10-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

alritey
more about my company
it’s high tech
or maybe i’m sua ku la
haha
currently i’m like very happy wif my company lar
before all the workload start coming in
and i start feeling shitty about stuff
let me say all the good things to make u envious
muhahahaha

OFFICE/WORKSTATION
high-rise (40th storey)
nice view
big table
comfy armchair
no more noisy printers in front of me
partitions are high enuff
to not see my colleague sitting in the next section
2 pple sharing 1 laser printer
free flow stationery

TOILET
very near my workstation
very clean
auto flush
auto tap
got 1 shower room!!

PANTRY
free flow of...
3-in-1 coffee and milo
green tea
wu1 long2 tea
xiang1 pian4
khong guan biscuits
fruits on certain days
crackers

TECHNOLOGY
telelift
u noe hospitals those rectangular boxes moving overhead on tracks
ya, we call dat the telelift
it transports our docs to different levels of the building
coz my company occupies 19 out of 52 storeys of the building
in addition to dat, we've also got in-house despatch
but coz the latter operates at fixed timings
it'll be faster to use the telelift
if we wanna transport urgent docs
huge and fast copy machines
high tech speaker fone with speed dial to helpdesk
can extend the alarm using the fone too
coz every day at 7pm
the lights and aircon will be switched off automatically
and the alarm will be armed
so if we working OT
can conveniently extend the floor’s alarm system
cool rite
haha, ok lar, i sua ku can
there’s also this system on the intranet
which allows us to control
lighting, aircon and movement of blinds
and i can send free sms using my intranet
but not sure whether they track anot lar
so i dare not send too many
haha
our email uses lotus notes
i’m still fiddling around with it
realized that it’s a powerful application
can easily call a meeting
create a team room where docs such as work procedures are kept
blah blah blah
oh yah
my comp has a dvd-writer lor
lagi better than my comp at home
but no floppy drive lar

COLLEAGUES
nice pple
strong team spirit
workflow is clear
so no one is indispensable
which is a good and bad thing lar
good in the sense that
can take urgent leave without having ur fone ringing all day
coz everyone knows where everything is kept
and wat issues are done/outstanding
bad in the sense dat they can ask u to leave anytime
hoho

oh yah
i juz signed up for ABT (abs, bum, tum) classes
can slim down liao!!
fyi, i put on 5 kgs after knowing my neighbour lor
but i tink he put on more than me
hahahaha
12 lessons for 40 bucks
so every class is 3+ bucks nia
at first i thot it's kinda wasting $$
since i've aredi got my california membership
but but but u see ah...
the classes are conducted during lunch time!
so i’ll have to eat light
so it's like dieting and exercising 2-in-1!
plus now i'll have a valid reason
to take a relaxing hot shower in the middle of the day
how cool is dat man
helps keep me awake for the 2nd half of the day too

going home in 5 minutes’ time!!
woohoooooo
oh yeah i love my job
at least for now

new job!!

2006-10-17T12:47:00.000+08:00

guess wat
this draft was in my blog about my resignation and new job
written in future tense
now then i post
so must edit everything and change to past tense
hahaha

i tendered my resignation liao
on 8 Sept 2006
last day of sevice wif DBS was 7 Oct
took 2 days leave to rest for a long weekend
before i start work at GIC on 9 Oct
so my last working day in DBS will be 4 Oct
was so happy counting down to it everyday
not dat i don't like the company lar
it's just dat the pay is sucky lor
and it's kinda exciting to change job environment mah (:

GIC
Governement of Singapore Investment Corporation Pte Ltd
LKY's the chairman wor
sounds big
but no lah
it's a private firm
but the gah-men oversees it
becoz the firm takes the gah-men's assets
and invests them in global markets
i went for their interview on 7 Sept (thurs)
and on the same day, i was accepted
so next day (fri) i tendered my resignation
when i was telling my neighbour more abt the company
i started by saying the full name
and he was like "i don't like the 1st word aredi"
hahahaha

upon receiving my resignation
my immediate supervisor suggested dat i re-consider
and not rush into it
i kinda agreed
coz everything happened so quickly
it seemed like a rash decision
so over the weekend
i spent much time talking to various pple
neighbour, frens, colleagues
getting opinions and suggestions
after weighing the pros and cons
and considering all my options
i decided (with the support of my neighbour)
to go ahead and give it a shot
so i arranged to sign the letter of employment
on the following tues

started work last monday
so far so good
got all my accesses aredi
which means gonna start doing real work soon
last week was spent surfing the intranet
reading handbooks and whatnots
really boring week lar
but now dat i've got internet access
it's so much better!!
muahahahaha
they don't block anything lor
but i tink they really monitor the kind of sites dat we go to
so currently, i surf those emails, blogs and forums
during lunch time only
muz be more careful lar
heehee

ok
tell u more later
=Þ

weird dream..

2006-09-14T09:21:00.000+08:00

had a weird dream this morning
long one some more
i mean, it seems long lah coz a lot of things happen
plus the dream scenes started at nite
and ended next day morning
but in reality, it was only 10mins
during the snooze time of my hp alarm

i was at a band concert
my sec sch band
// forgot whether i was performing or part of the audience //
during intermission, i left the concert hall
walking around, ended up with erica in a tiny manicure shop
// fyi, erica is my neighbour’s fren //
we sat down (like waiting for something)
chatted about manicure and stuff
after wat seems like ages
i suddenly rem dat i have to get back into the concert hall
was walking towards the stage
when the band (read: my poly band)
started playing the 1st 2 bars of persis

//sidetrack//
dunno how the performing band changed
from my sec sch band into my poly band
anyway, persis is a piece dat we’ll be performing
in ngee ann concert band’s upcoming concert on 4 nov
i’m talking about reality here
the band’s really having a concert
and we alumni band will be performing for 20 mins after intermission
anyone interested? come support me la!!
//sidetrack//

back to the dream…
so i hurriedly went on stage to join in
after sitting down, realized my instrument still in back stage
so i went to take it
the next scene was at the back stage of the concert hall
when it was the end of concert liao
// but i don’t rem goin back on stage and performing
mayb dat didn’t happen in the dream
or mayb i forgot lar //
everyone was packing their stuff
and discussing about where to go etc
i kena psychoed by a gal to go gallavanting
// apparently we spent the nite outside
coz the next scene was next day early morning //
the gal disappeared to dunno where
and i was walking along the corridor of a HDB building
towards someone’s house
there were 2 guy frens wif me
we reached the doorstep of a house
a woman inside, who sensed our presence, started shouting
she’s angry dat we spent the nite outside
and got home only in the morning
so the 2 guys asked me to go home as they entered the house
loud scolding and caning sounds followed
i ran to the lift, afraid dat the woman will run out and cane me also
didn’t press the lift button in time so i missed a lift dat was on its way down
in the lift were 2 boys whom i dunno
// u noe most HDB lift doors have glass panes so u can see who’s inside //
was juz cursing dat i missed the lift
when suddenly the lift (with the 2 boys) came back up
the doors opened and i stepped in
reason why the lift came back up was bcoz
there was a lift operating under it and dat lift was on its way up
// ridiculous rite, 2 lifts on top of each other //
dat lift had priority over our lift
so our lift was being “pushed” upwards
we had to wait until dat lift finish its operations
before it’s our lift’s turn to operate
so we waited patiently lor
the 2 boys turned out to be the 2 “guys”
dat went into the house and kena caned by the angry mother
coz they were complaining to each other about the cane marks
// question is: how did they get into the lift b4 me?!
and they behaved as if they dunno me
when in the 1st place, i was following them home
anyway, dreams are dreams lar, ridiculous de.. //
ok, back to the lift scene..
the lift below us push push push our lift upwards
until we suddenly realize dat we are out of the building!
our lift was floating/flying towards dunno where
it was a pretty stable flight
so it took us a long while before we realized we were flying
coz we thot dat the lift was just continuously moving upwards
at the very moment when we realized we were flying
the top quarter of the lift disappeared
// so we could see outside //
so we were like in a box without a lid
flying flying flying
we decided we can’t fly forever
so decided to land
was “steering” the lift using our body weightit was an arduous task coz no steering wheel mah
but we managed to get the hang of it
the lift glided towards a carpark with alot of cars and pple
in an attempt to “brake”
we scraped and scratched a lot of vehicles very very badly
we finally came to a complete stop and were expecting the owners
to come scold us for damaging their vehicles
but no, they calmly parked their vehicles
got off and started taking pictures of the damage
ignoring us totally
we got out of the “lift” and walked towards a crowd
i alone (suddenly the 2 guys disappeared) walked towards a table
many pple there machiam having picnic
so i went to kaypo around
amongst the pple at the table was hartini wif her husband and son
// fyi, hartini’s my boss //
they were eating ice-cream
i asked her where they got the ice-cream from
coz we are in the middle of a carpark
and i dun see any stalls around!
she pointed to something behind me and said
“neh, there loh, can just take”
i turned around and saw wat she was pointing at
a giant fridge without a lid
// u noe those industrial, top-open, white colour kind //
there was 1 auntie standing beside it
inviting me to go towards it and take ice-cream
so i walked towards the fridge and looked inside
saw plenty of different types of ice-cream
nicely packed according to type
i found wat i wanted (paddle pop rainbow) and reached for it
took me some effort to take the ice-cream out
coz it’s a giant fridge mah
almost toppled into the fridge in the process
finally got it out, unwrapped it and was about to bite into it
when an arm grabbed my waist from behind!!
…
..
.
and i woke up
it was my neighbour’s arm lar
hugging me from the back

sigh
i want my paddle pop ice-cream!!

the last dream also like dat
he woke me up just when i was about to bite into my rocher

grrrrrr……

wahahahaha

2006-09-02T16:12:00.000+08:00

check this out!!
giant poodle
wonder wat happens if the authorities find out

check out this heartbroken dog also
very good commercial
great actor, great producer

chi ba bom...

2006-08-26T16:09:00.000+08:00

very cute song..

风走在我们前面
甩裙摆画着圆圈
花美得兴高采烈
那香味有点阴险

你在我旁边的旁边
但影子却肩碰肩
偷看一眼你的唇边
是不是也有笑意明显

*明明是昨天的事情
怎么今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题
我们再这样下去
你猜会走到哪里

**但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电
就够我快乐熔化

***我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电
一直甜蜜触电
直到爆炸

像一年四个季节
都被你变成夏天
我才会在你面前
总是被晒红了脸

像一百万个秋千
在我心里面叛变
被你指尖
碰到指尖
我瞬间就被荡到天边

repeat *
repeat **
repeat ***
repeat **
repeat ***

chi ba bom..
now u understand the title?
heehee

Cat Abuser / Killer!!

2006-08-26T11:35:00.000+08:00

i'm sure u guys kept up with the news rite
if not, do read the following article
i took it from here

==============================
Aug 25, 2006
STINews: Eight weeks' jail for cat torturer
by Kushwant Singh
==============================

AN AIR-CON technician pleaded guilty in the Community Court to torturing a cat and was jailed for eight weeks yesterday.

Malaysian Wong Geng Thong, 28, had befriended the cat after having dinner at a Haig Road coffee shop on July 31.

He fed it some cat food he had in his van and played with it. But when it scratched his leg, he became furious and put it in his van before driving off.

He reached the multi-storey carpark at Block 93A Jalan Dua, off Old Airport Road, at about 1.40am and parked in a deserted corner. He let the cat out but grew angry when it started running around.

He tied a wire noose around its neck and lifted the wire, hanging the cat by the neck. Every time the cat lost consciousness, Wong would revive it by massaging its chest.

He repeated his cruel game until the cat could not be revived.

Removing the wire noose, he grabbed the cat by the neck and bashed its body against the wall several times. He threw it on the floor and kept kicking it before driving off.

Wong did not realise all this had been captured on a spy camera in the carpark.

After cleaners found the grisly remains of 10 cats in the neighbourhood over the past five months, animal lovers started weekend patrols and raised funds to buy video cameras.

They then convinced the town council to hook up six miniature cameras to zoom in on areas in the carpark where several of the mangled bodies were found.

Mr Ishak Puteh, 42, a cleaner, called one of the animal lovers when he found the dead cat on Aug 1 at about 9.30am.

He alerted Miss Sandy Lim, who spotted a blue-and-white van in the video footage of a man swinging a cat from a lasso-like rope tied to its neck.

The education consultant, who is her 40s, scoured the neighbourhood, found the van and tailed the man to his workplace in Eunos, where he was later arrested by the police.

Miss Lim and two other cat lovers, who were in court yesterday, said they had expected a stiffer sentence.

She said: 'The punishment did not take into account the full severity of the crime as about 10 cats have been killed.'

Added graphic designer Fiona Yuen, 32: 'We've no doubts he is a serial cat killer.'

In passing sentence, District Judge Bala Reddy stressed the seriousness of the offence. He also noted that the psychiatrist who examined Wong was concerned he might abuse people too.

Wong could have been jailed up to a year and fined up to $10,000.

The Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals (SPCA) is upset with the sentence, and will be submitting an appeal to the Attorney-General's Chambers.

Said the executive officer of the SPCA, Miss Deirdre Moss: 'With due respect to the courts, the SPCA thinks the punishment does not fit the crime, and may be sending out the wrong signal that such brutality is tolerated in society.''

==============================

Some people have written it to ask what they should do about the sentencing for the Old Airport Road abuser.
Write in to the Attorney-General's Chambers and tell them how you feel about this case :-

ATTORNEY-GENERAL'S CHAMBERS
Address : 1 Coleman Street, #10-00, Singapore 179803
Tel : 63361411
Fax : 63325984
Internet Website : http://www.agc.gov.sg
Email Address : agc@agc.gov.sg

As always, please be calm, polite and reasonable. We're also preparing to write to them on this matter.

==============================

the above post is from here
if u feel something for the cats
pls write in too
but like the owner of the blog said
be calm, polite and reasonable

Finally!!

2006-08-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

heehee

goin home to see my babies
hehehe

oh yah
in case you are wondering
my company blocks blogs/journals sites
this post plus a few previous ones
were written in office at dat particular timing
i save in word and then copy paste

yeah, blogging helps alleviate boredom

bored……and pissed!!

2006-08-25T16:35:00.000+08:00

the title tells my mood

somebody stole my golden kiwi!!
u noe those kind dat’s yellow instead of green
i bought a box
and put them in the fridge lor
duly wrote my name and section some more
then today i found 1 missing!!
knn
despicable thief
may your hands rot and drop off!!
not dat i’m stingy over a golden kiwi
but this is an office leh
not very nice rite
juz becoz chances of u being caught are slim
and knowing dat i won’t try to find the culprit
doesn’t give u the right to do it mah!
u all see lah, my company pay us so badly
we resort to stealing colleague’s golden kiwi (-_-)

was talking to my fren juz now
and i got pissed off on the fone too
now i forgot wat it was about liao

juz now kena scold by my colleague also
and for fuck?
i was fiddling wif a pack of “lavender sand”
flown all the way from Hokkaido
me and another colleague were wondering wat it was
“lavender sand”.. i bet u also dunno wat it is rite?!
the description was in jap lar
we were guessing either biscuits or chocs
it’s a gift from another colleague who juz came back from holiday
actually i had no intention to open it de
was juz looking at the nice packaging
(u noe how japs emphasize dat aspect)
pai seh mah
we usually leave it to the “older” ones
to start opening and eating watever presents given to us
then all of a sudden
out of nowhere
“miao, why u open?! some need to give cpf side one leh!!”
yah, fucking loud enuff for everyone to hear
fuck lar
did u hear paper tearing?
did u see me open and take the contents out?!
and i was standing only one fucking arm’s length away lor
cannot see wat i was doing meh
i would have opened it long ago if i wanted to
and u wldn’t have time to stop me
i was goin to put it back aredi lor
and if it’s meant for cpf section
why leave it at our “pantry”?!
(we have a little corner where we put snacks for my section)
go fucking give it to them lar!!
as if i noe it’s meant for other people
it’s understood dat watever’s there is ours wat!
fucking hell

alrite
done ranting
I’m a GIRL okay
i have my mood swings
and in case u don’t know
it’s my ENTITLEMENT

go away

ok, don’t, please?

10 Canine Commandments..

2006-08-25T15:23:00.000+08:00

another classic article dat will make my eyes wet..
enjoy..

10 Canine Commandments

oo1. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you will be painful for me. Remember that BEFORE you get me.
oo2. Give me time to understand what you want from me.
oo3. Place your trust in me. It is crucial to my well-being.
oo4. Don't be angry with me for long, and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work, entertainment and friends. I have only YOU.
oo5. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understand your words, I understand your voice.
oo6. Be aware that however you treat me, I'll never forget.
oo7. Please don't hit me. I can't hit back, but I can bite and scratch and I really don't want to do that.
oo8. Before you scold me for being uncooperative, obstinate, or lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right foods or I've been out in the sun too long or my heart is getting old and weak.
oo9. Take care of me when I get old. You too will grow old.
o10. Go with me on difficult journeys. NEVER say, “I can't bear to watch” or “Let it happen in my absence”. Everything is easier for me if YOU are there.

彩虹天桥。。

2006-08-25T11:28:00.000+08:00

read this article many many times before
from forums, forwarded emails etc.
but every time i re-read it
my eyes still well up with tears
to all animal lovers out there
especially those who have/had pets
you will know exactly wat i mean

enjoy..

The Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together...

- Author Unknown

doggie stuff..

2006-08-25T11:19:00.000+08:00

missing my furkid

ever since i joined dogsforum.sg
i’ve been pretty active in the doggie community
heng the site is not blocked by my company
hahaha
read about this china woman who’s so damn cruel
all forums are like flaming her wif vulgarities and curses
everyone’s like cursing china pple
saying they themselves are ashamed to be chinese etc
but i read in one thread dat she’s korean leh
dunno lah, korean or chinese
may she rot and burn in hell forever

came across this sad short film
calling out to everyone
to think twice before getting a dog
and also think twice before putting it to sleep

brought chino to west coast dog run thrice aredi
trying to make it a weekly routine
dat is, if my neighbour’s schedule allows lar
coz he’s the transport provider mah
hehe *wink*
chino gets so excited when we bring him out
u can really see the glow in his face
and after every trip
he’ll come back feeling dog tired (literally!)
and as all dog owners will agree wif me
tired dog is good dog
i’ll usually bathe him after each trip to the dog run
and he’ll be so tired dat he’ll fall asleep as i blow dry him
makes it easier to clean his ears too =)

my two precious babies
big and small
so cute..heehee

crisis!!

2006-08-24T16:26:00.000+08:00

bored

i’m facing a MAJOR crisis now
i’m so sick of my job i can puke
i’ve been sending out plenty of resumes
but not getting any interviews
actually got lah, went for a few
but no news from them
i don’t look forward to work at all
everyday, i stare at the clock
willing it’s hands to move faster
too bad my willpower is only dat much
the moment i step into the building
i look forward to lunch break
after lunch, i’ll have to use all my will to stay awake
after 3pm, i’ll start to look forward
to whatever plan(s) i have after work
and continue willing the hands of the clock
in between work, i look forward to ANY form of interruption
sms, fone call, moving ard to pass docs, even……tummyache
yes! i’m so bored at work
i’d rather go shit than to stay at my desk!
been posted back to haw par centre since 10 july
dunno leh
mayb it’s me lah
feels different liao
feels weird sticking back to them
forgot how i coped with the change
when i moved to chai chee
dunno leh
mayb there fewer pple
no choice but to click and stick together
over here got so many pple
sometimes i feel like i’m intruding
into their aredi-formed groups
though the place is much closer to my home
i’m not happier here leh
maybe it’s just me
maybe it’s the job scope
maybe it’s the small workstation
maybe it’s the presence of bosses
maybe it’s the politics
maybe it’s the company

haiyah! must be the company lar!! =(

谢谢

2006-08-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

juz wanna say a big "thank you"
to the following pple
who were there for me last week
in one way or the other
=)

dean
jingyi
arlene
kaiting
edalene
zhenjin
jianyang
jessie
soo hoon
agnes
shujuan
gerald
and many of my DBS colleagues

visit from grandad?

2006-08-07T18:49:00.000+08:00

todae is the 7th day after my grandad's death
in chinese we call it 头七
it's usually on this day
dat the person who juz passed away comes back for a visit
it's as if to look at his/her family for a last time
this morning at 3am
chino was barking and growling non-stop
for about 5 minutes
hmmmm
oh well
maybe
juz maybe
真的有头七这回事吧

leave me alone.

2006-08-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

pms-y

i'm in such a bad mood
i just feel like crying non-stop
i want to be left alone
no, actually, i don't want to be alone

i need a shoulder
i need a hug

and tissue paper

forgive and forget?

2006-08-02T16:54:00.000+08:00

mixed feelings

my grandad passed away ydae at 1511
he kena stroke more than 10 years ago
since then
he's been in a nursing home
can't talk
can't walk
can't do anything on his own
can't even recognise us
he's been in and out of hospital recently
fever and some medical complications
so, yah, we kinda expected it lah
he's 92 years old this year
long life eh
i'm not sure whether he had a fulfilling one or not
or does he have any unfulfilled wishes or regrets
oh well, guess i'll never find out

i saw him only once every year
yep, during CNY
visited him once at the nursing home
actually, i don't remember much about him ever since he suffered the stroke
my memories of him are of the times when he was healthy
when he was part of the cause of a fair bit of misery in my life
i don't deny dat my memories of him are not pleasant ones
but now dat my family has moved on
plus the fact dat he's gone
there's no point in bearing the grudge
actually, i'm not sure if i've forgiven him
but i'm quite sure i don't hate him
it's juz dat everytime i see him
those memories and hurt flood back
and i just can't behave like the younger grandkids
who readily shower him wif hugs and kisses
but i also don't behave as if i'm ready to kill him anytime lah
oh well
till now, i'm still kinda confused
let's just say i'm neutral towards him ba
*shrugs*

this morning
i participated in the ritual to house him in the coffin
looking at his body
i don't seem to recognise him
he didn't look like wat i remembered of him
i had this strange feeling
of not being able to relate the body to him
it sounds weird rite
but i'm really not sure wat i felt
it's just weird lah

anyways, let bygones be bygones yah
being my paternal grandfather
i guess he'll stay in a little part of my heart forever ba

on a lighter note
this is the 1st wake dat i've been to / participated
dat has internet connection
many thanks to the generosity of residents at telok blangah heights
hehe

SFF 2006

2006-08-01T18:17:00.000+08:00

it’s dat time of the year again
when we are supposed to display our patriotism
yes, u guessed it
it’s our nation’s bdae!!
yipppeeeeee
no lah
i’m not so excited about the bdae itself
but more of the events and programs dat come with it
fireworks festival!!
SFF is here again
this year, it will be at esplanade bay!!
hou2 romantic wor
heehee

time really flies
looking back the past few years
there’s always been someone I adore
sitting beside me watching the fireworks with me
but it’s been a different someone every year
yep, dat’s how lucky / “lucky” I am (depends on how you view it)
heh
of coz I hope this year’s someone
will be the someone for a long time

another program dat I’m looking forward to is..
National Dog Walk
this is the 1st year I’m participating in it
with my beloved chino of coz
kinda excited about it
imagine so many people crowding at WCP
with their “furkids” (a new term I learnt from dogsforum.sg)
sounds so cute rite
furkids = 毛孩 ??
hawhawhaw
chanced upon this forum recently
it's rather active
the GROG just had a gathering
Golden Retriever Owners Group
can you imagine having 31 pple + 28 goldies at one ECP BBQ pit?!
must have been quite a scene
i didn't go lah
not part of the group mah
my chino is too tiny
can't even pass off as a goldie puppy
haha
the cocker spaniel group like not so active leh
hmmm *sad*
but there's quite a number of active members in the forum
hope they hold a major gathering for all breeds soon
heehee

How Could You?

2006-07-20T16:46:00.000+08:00

this article brought tears to my eyes..
really sad and touching..
pets are for life..
they are not toys..
please be kind to animals..

===========
Jim Willis 2001

When I was a puppy I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" - but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub.

My housetraining took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed, listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs," you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.

She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" - still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy. Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."

As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them, especially their touch - because your touch was now so infrequent - and I would have defended them with my life if need be.

I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams. Together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway. There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being your dog to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.

Now you have a new career opportunity in another city and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family.

I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog or cat, even one with "papers."

You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a goodbye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.

After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you - that you had changed your mind - that this was all a bad dream...or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.

I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table, rubbed my ears and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.

She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?"

Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself - a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place. With my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not meant for her. It was you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of. I will think of you and wait for you forever.

May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.

lovestruck..

2006-07-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

heehee

我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐
像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀让我飞也有回去的窝

我愿意我也可以
付出一切也不会可惜
就在一起看时间流逝
要记得我们相爱的方式

就是爱你爱着你
有悲有喜有你
平淡也有了意义

就是爱你爱着你
甜蜜又安心
那种感觉就是你

learning how to live on air..

2006-07-03T20:12:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda broke
yes, again!! =(
my new-found hobby is so not cheap leh
speaking of that
tioman photos are up!! heehee
haven't rename them yet lar

saving up for a trip to phuket next year
additional income's down
and i haven't got a new job yet
sent out 22 resumes
went for only ONE interview
i have a dog to feed
i need a new handphone badly
i haven't shopped for clothes for quite a while liao
i am supposed to go travelling wif my best fren

so..here i am..
making a public appeal
hahaha

those who owe me $$ - pls return
those who think you owe me $$ - don't think, juz return, you probably haven't done so
those who are / feel rich - pls donate generously
those whom i owe $$ - so sorry, pls take a queue number

frens say i can live off my bf
yes, of coz i can
but if u noe me well enuff
i'm not dat kindof girl
i'd rather be self-sufficient
but the thot dat someone's there
for you to depend on feels good lah
yes, i'm easily contented

hee

oh yah
added 20+ photos to Rondeau 2005
came across an email
from a fellow band member sent in Feb
yes, my mailboxes are always flooded
and i'm always trying to clear them

bleah

bloopz bloopz!

2006-06-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

i got my advanced open water diver certification!!
went back to Aur for it
was supposed to go on 19 May
but sharon fell sick
doc suspected bronchitis
got her to take x-ray some more
so both of us pulled out from the trip
well, i can't possibly leave her alone yar?
antz tried to psycho me to go wif them
and then go again wif sharon the next time
i would love to, but, sorry, i don't print $$
haha
on the day of their departure to Aur
our instructor david called sharon up
and asked her wat happened
he also asked if we wanna go and send them off
sharon called me and told me dat she really buay tahan
when she heard all the hustle and bustle in the background
we had a good mind to ignore doctor's orders
and throw down wat we were doin right there and then
go home, pack and join them for the trip
haha
but i asked her "more importantly, how do u feel?"
"congested" was the answer
i was like "then cannot lah! siao ah!"
we both know it's dangerous to dive wif lungs problem
so, yar, gotta give it a miss

2 weeks later (2 to 4 June)
finally our turn came
felt kinda lonely at first coz we had only each other
strangers all around us
sharon was regretting not to have joined antz and the rest
but i told her to look on the bright side lar
this way we get to know more pple mah
and we did!! =D

photos are up!!
mostly underwater shots
taken by eric, an ang-moh in my group
this time my group was small
made up of 2 ang-mohs, eric and bob
and a sec-sch girl ruth
sharon, me and ruth shared bunk wif another girl lanie
this 19-year-old girl damn happening de leh
she rides a phantom
and signed up for open water certification all on her own
so she had 101% attention from her instructor shafe
she also went around making frens
wif the entire lot of divers over the weekend
this time, a total of 4 schools went there for the weekend
and at the end of the trip
lanie had a list of contacts
all from pple (including instructors) of other schools
happening yar
i renamed the photos to my best knowledge
correct me if i'm wrong ok
heh

looking foward to my tioman trip next week
cant wait to bloopz again
muahahaha

contented..=)

2006-05-06T13:16:00.000+08:00

谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样思念

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
这是我对你爱的累积

bloopz

2006-04-28T11:39:00.000+08:00

from the title of this entry
yep, u guessed it
it's an all-about-diving entry again
finally, all the photos are up
we took a total of 351 in 2 days!!
after taking out the repeated and tak-glam ones
200 left
go take a lookie k
i've also added a "video" section at the sidebar
uploaded a video on youtube.com
it's taken by william during 1 of our speed boat rides
juz a short intro of all of us lar=)

went ADEX (asia dive expo) last sat

this is my trade visitor pass
they printed it on the spot leh
stylo hor
hehehe
i noe lah, u tink i cheap thrill rite
pass oso muz post here
hahaha

ADEX is a 3-day exhibition held at suntec
friday it's open for trade visitors only
but sat and sun it's open to public
tho i registered as a trade visitor
couldn't make it on fri coz my colleague's on leave
and i gotta cover her work
so i met up wif antz, llewell and jiaqin on sat
went on a major shopping spree lor
but thanks to antz
we got a lot of good buys
heehee
let's see..i bought..

o1. MARES avanti X3 fins - $98
o2. gear bag - $10
o3. BARE booties - $30
o4. OCEANIC wet suit (long) - $99
o5. OCEANIC mask & snorkel - $55
o6. AKONA mask strap pad - $6

good thing govt giving us $$$
hahaha
if not gotta eat grass liao

i'm so looking forward to my advanced certification
can't wait to dive again
counting down to may
hee

bloop bloop bloop..

2006-04-13T01:03:00.000+08:00

yes yes, i noe i noe
i haven't been blogging
coz i've been busy
ok, no, lazy
haha

this is gonna be an all-about-diving entry
i'll backtrack my happenings in future entries yar

taa daa!!!
i'm certified!! *beams*

my buddy!!

my coursemates!!

anthony's gang of leisure divers

more photos at the sidebar
go take a look yar

been talking abt getting my diving certification since god-noes-when
finally put plan to action
thx to anthony and jerrini
who went around sourcing for the best deals in town
thanks so much!!

we went pulau aur from 7 to 9 april
before dat, we had to finish studying the PADI textbook and vcds
before going for 2 theory lessons, exam and 2 confined water dives
at the island, we made 5 open water dives
1 of which was for leisure

it's really exhilarating to be able to breathe underwater
and diving in the open sea is quite an experience

during the first few dives
we were busy trying to get used to the gear
being underwater with all the fishes
the water pressure, effects of depth
checking our gauges, noting our buoyancy
and alot more stuff
being inexperienced and overwhelmed
we kept bumping into corals and stirring up sand
but we progressed and improved with every dive

trust me
it's really fun
go take up diving!! =D